7/31,8/2&8/3 Lucy - I am letting her go on Sunday. - TODAY

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  1. mariko

    mariko Well-Known Member

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    Hi everyone,

    Yesterday's condo

    Thank you very much for your support, love, hugs, light, vines and everything else you are sending to us.
    Lucy and I really appreciate them, so much.
    I would have been feeling a lot more upset and miserable if I didn't have this board.

    I have decided to let my sweet Lucy go on Sunday.
    I've just called the vet and made an appointment.
    I have been delaying making the decision, making excuses, but her QOL is declining, and I know this will only go one way and won't get better.
    I really really wanted to do this at home, not at the vet which is probably her least favorite place, and that's why I needed to set the day ahead of time.
    And I feel at peace with this decision, sad of course, but at peace.
    The vet will come here at around 4:30pm Pacific Daylight Time on Sunday August 3rd.

    I spoke with Lucy's reiki practitioner again yesterday, and she told me that it would help Lucy if I let Lucy know and verbally tell her that I'm OK letting her go.
    Because Lucy is at peace and waiting for me to be OK with it. Lucy is worried about me and wants to make sure I'm OK before she goes.
    So that's what I did yesterday. It was so hard to mean it, but I think I did OK.
    I told her that I'm OK because she's going to a better place just a little bit sooner than me and we will meet again.
    I think she understood.

    I took time off work yesterday, today and tomorrow.
    I just have to check e-mails a few times a day, but other than that, I've been spending time with Lucy.
    Just talking and cuddling and napping together.

    Lucy is eating but very little.
    She's drinking. She goes to the water bowl by herself, but I bring the water bowl to her too so she'd drink enough.
    She still purrs, but not all the time like she used to.
    She still uses her box, but she needs to take a couple of breaks before she reaches the box.
    One time, when she looked like she wanted to go, I carried her there, trying to be helpful.
    She complained, and just stepped out of the box, and headed back to the ottoman.
    So I said, Sorry I thought you needed to go, and I carried her back to where she was.
    Once I put her back on the ottoman, she started heading towards the box slowly by herself, peed in the box, and headed back to the ottoman.
    Still my stubborn girl.

    My only wish now is for her body to hold until Sunday.
    I told you she's got fluid retention in her abdomen, but she's also got a bit of fluids in her chest, and that is my most concern.
    Please please send your strongest prayers that her body will give us until Sunday.
     
  2. Anne & Zener GA

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    (((Mariko))) Sending our strongest vines for you and Lucy.
    Liz
     
  3. Dyana

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    Oh (((Mariko))), I am sending the strongest of prayers that Lucy will wait until Sunday.
     
  4. Wendy&Neko

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    Piling on more vines for Lucy and hugs for you. Let me know if it would help you to have someone with you on Sunday. :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  5. Tricia Cinco(GA) & Harvey

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    Re: 7/31 Lucy - I am letting her go on Sunday.

    {{{Mariko}}

    You are a very courageous and generous, loving person. Lucy is so blessed to have had you for her bean. This is the hardest decision to make, and you put Lucy's needs first. You have all my admiration and support. Sending many prayers and vines for Lucy to hang in there with you until the appointment on Sunday. I pray she will have pleasant, peaceful days with you till then.

    Sending many hugs to you. :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  6. rhiannon and shadow (GA)

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    adding our vines....
    I hope you have good snuggles and purr time.....
     
  7. Chris & China (GA)

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    ((Mariko))

    You're making this decision to spare Lucy more pain and disability, so it's the most loving decision you can make. She knows this and loves you all the more for it, even though it's the hardest decision any of us ever have to make.

    Sending vines and prayers that Lucy has good days between now and then while you say your goodbyes.
     
  8. Josie & Ripley (GA)

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    ((((Mariko)))),
    I am so glad you're able to take some time off work to spend with your girl.
    Sending you and Lucy many vines and lots of love.
    :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  9. Jen&Eddie

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    (((Mariko)))

    I'm so glad you have someone that can help you communicate with Lucy. It's such a profound reflection of her love for you that she was waiting for you to be ready to let her go. I'm so glad you have the opportunity to let Lucy know what's happening and that you can both be at peace with the decision and focus only on each other before the time comes. May you and Lucy be surrounded by peace and love at this time.
     
  10. tiffmaxee

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    Your bond is so strong that she needs you to make that decision for her. I think she will hold on and let you give her that one final gift of love as she too loves you so much. It's the hardest thing we ever have to do and I admire your courage. I have done it just twice so far. The first time I was caught off guard and had no prep. That was almost easier. The second time I needed a little coaxing. Thankfully you are doing the right thing at the right time and it's good that you are at peace. I'm piling on more vines and prayers that everything goes according to plan as I am sure that it will. :YMHUG:
     
  11. Ella & Rusty & Stu(GA)

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    ((((Mariko)))) ((((Lucy))))
    We wish you a weekend full of your great love for each other, full of the joy that you have known together.

    Ella & Rusty
     
  12. Deanna & Billie

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    (((Mariko and Lucy)))
    All the good vines in the world to both of you. I really admire you for how you're handling everything. I love that she is still being stubborn. What a strong little lady.
    :YMHUG: cat_pet_icon
     
  13. Tiger(GA) and Ruth

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    (((((Mariko and Lucy))))) I am continuing to pray for you and Lucy, please feel the strength in these vines of comfort and the knowledge that what you are doing is the most kind and compassionate act of love! I think that is absolutely wonderful that you are able to spend as much time with your special girl, surrounding her in comfort and love. I don't know if it would help you or not, but when I had to put my two kitties down, I was very sad that I didn't have any videos of them. We had plenty of pictures but I regret that I didn't do that. I printed out the things that your reiki practitioner told you, it made sense to me. I know your heart has to be hurting but I truly believe she knows and feels your love. Hugs to you, Lucy and Ginger, I bet she feels sad too! :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  14. MollynSkooter

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    Sending lots of love, prayers and thoughts your way.

    What an amazing bean you have been to Lucy......Sending virtual hugs to you during this difficult time
     
  15. Tina & Rocky

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    Re: 7/31 Lucy - I am letting her go on Sunday.

    Mariko, {{HUGS}} for you and Lucy... this type of suffering, I cannot stand it myself.

    I haven't known you and Lucy for long, but I know that you have been helping her live a quality life since she entered your life. Keep in mind, that there may be a moment in time between now and Sunday where you find that Lucy eats ALL of her food, as if she had never been sick, where she surveys the entire lay of her land, whether it takes her a a while because she needs to stop and rest between the walks. I was told that this is the spirit's last look at this life, in remembrance. There is this sudden forgetting that the body is very ill and our animals may suddenly seem to be healthy for just a few hours, EXACTLY like their old self again. They may go to a window, or an screen door, and stare out of it for hours.. this is not a wish to say goodbye to this life. It is a strong desire to hang on to it.

    There is not a sentient being born on earth that wants to die. Even those who have committed suicide, regret it. (According to Buddhism.) You do not get to share the same experiences ever again with the same person. But, at the same time, it's good to remember that our lives are never the same for even one minute of the day. Everything is changing, moment by moment. All is impermanence, and you are never alone in this experience.

    I am sure that you will meet Lucy again, and maybe next time, she won't be a cat, or a dog, or any animal. :D

    Sending you both lots of love filled light.. <3
     
  16. mariko

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    Re: 7/31 Lucy - I am letting her go on Sunday.

    Thank you very much everyone.
    My legs feel weak when I think about this.
    There are still moments I doubt my decision that come and go.
    But I think this is the right thing to do.
    She can't go on with the amount she's eating now.
    And I won't force food to her at this end stage of her life.

    You know, She's fought through so many health issues, I thought CKD was the last bad news, and I thought that's what would take her.
    I never thought this big C-thing was coming at the end, and the aggressive untreatable kind too.
    She's my hero. She deserves a peaceful exit.
     
  17. Marje and Gracie

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    Re: 7/31 Lucy - I am letting her go on Sunday.

    ((((Mariko and Lucy))))

    You both are incredibly brave and strong and your bond will carry you through the next several days and until you meet again and hold her in your arms.

    Just follow her lead.....she will tell you and your great love for her will set her free.
     
  18. Sandy and Black Kitty

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    ((((((Mariko & Lucy)))))))

    You have arrived at the most difficult of places.

    Sending you continued vines of comfort, strength and clarity to help support you and Lucy as you face the days ahead.
     
  19. carfurby (GA)

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    Mariko, I'm so sorry Lucy's time has come, but glad the vet can come to your place. You're doing the most loving thing by letting her go so she won't be in pain. I know that doesn't make it easier, but she knows you love her. Make the most of the last couple of days you have together. I'm glad you are able to take time off from work to be with her. Sending prayers and hugs. :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  20. Georgette and Clare

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    Marino, I'm new here. It's so clear, the strong love between you. I believe that Lucy won't feel one moment of separation and she'll be with you always. Take care, you have a lot of friends here.
     
  21. Angela & Blackie & 3 Others

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    {{{{{{{{{{MARIKO}}}}}}}}} I'm so very sorry to hear about this decision. Please know that you're making it in the best interest of Lucy. She will no longer be in pain, and will be free to play with the others that have GA. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.
     
  22. MrZ

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    (((Mariko)))
    Sending more vines of peace and comfort to you and Lucy. I am glad you're able to be with her now and up until the day you set her free from her broken body. I hope she'll hang on until then. :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  23. Suzanne & Cobb(GA)

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    (((Mariko))) I'm so sorry the time has come. I know this was such an agonizing decision for you, reading your condos over the last few days. I'm glad you've found some peace in your decision though. Lucy is, and always has been, lucky to have you as her caregiver. You, Lucy and the rest of your family are in our prayers! ~Suzanne
     
  24. Marilyn and Polly

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    Oh Mariko. I'm so sorry. I hope the love you two have for each other, the understandings that you share, confirm for you both that this is the path of love. I wish you peace, comfort for your breaking heart, and the knowledge that Lucy will always be with you. Just beyond sight. But not beyond feeling. Your bond cannot be broken at this transition.

    I'll light a candle for you both. Sending light and prayers.

    Marilyn
     
  25. Michelle and Mannie (GA)

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    Mariko, I am so very sorry. I am glad that you spoke with Lucy, and let her know you were ok with it all, that you are at peace. I did this too with my Mannie, and he did let me know it was OK. He was so much more relaxed and at peace after I did. Thinking of you, keeping you both in my thoughts.
     
  26. Picknickchick

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    <3 Sending you our love, you two beautiful stubborn girls <3
     
  27. Amy&TrixieCat

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    :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: Our thoughts, prayers, and hearts are with you, now and always. You are an amazing MamaBean, Lucy is an amazing kitty, and together the two of you are a true inspiration.
     
  28. lovey11

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    You always fought and worked very hard to give Lucy the best quality of life possible. I am so sorry Mariko. It is such a difficult time, but you love her so much that you want to release her from the pain. Sending prayers and hugs for you and Lucy.
     
  29. AZJenks

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    It is the ultimate act of love to know when to let go. There's a certain beauty in knowing that you have time to get the closure of which all too often many are deprived. May these next three days be a celebration of Lucy's life -- filled with love, kisses & hugs, treats, purrs, sweet remembrances, and whatever other special things you have grown to share together. Wishing you strength and peace...
     
  30. Ann & Tess GA

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    ((((((((((Mariko)))))))))) I think the hardest part is accepting and you have passed that hurdle. Sending you both vines and soothing white light.
     
  31. Tara and Scully

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    Mariko, I just want to echo what has already been said. You and Lucy are in our thoughts and prayers. You two are so lucky to have shared such a loving, wonderful relationship. I hope you can find comfort in the days ahead knowing that Lucy will always be with you.

    Tara & Scully
     
  32. Kim & Twice

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    (((Mariko))) Sending light and love to you and Lucy. Many vines and prayers that she will be able to spend every moment with you until Sunday. I am so glad that you are able to take time off this week.
    I know how you feel about sometimes doubting your decision, but I believe it is probably not doubting the actual decision so much as having a hard time wishing it didn't have to be made in the first place. You are too bonded to Lucy to not trust that you are doing the absolute right thing, with nothing but love and compassion. We all know this, Lucy knows this and now you need to truly believe it. You are one of the most incredible women I have met here, who goes so much above and beyond for your special girl. Trust your heart, even though it is breaking.

    Hugs, prayers, light and love to you both. :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  33. Barb & Checkers (GA)

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    Mariko, I am sending so much love and peace to you and Lucy. I know you will spend every minute doing for her, everything that makes her happy.
    When Check's end time came, I took him outside and let him eat grass, and bask in the sun. He got to eat stuff he was never allowed, and because he was on pain meds, he was in a good mood, and let me hug and hold him in my arms.

    I know you will make Lucy's last days, full of love and tenderness, as her life is.
    Leave nothing unsaid to her. Miss no opportunity for kisses and hugs and any goodies she was nevr allowed to have.
    She will tell everyone what a wonderful mommy you are.
    I'm so sorry Mariko, that you have to make this decision of the ultimate love for Lucy.
     
  34. julie & punkin (ga)

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    (((mariko)))

    you are such a loving mom to lucy. she's so lucky. i think you're doing everything just right. i love your story of trying to help her to her box and her wanting to do it for herself. She's got a big personality in that little tiny body, doesn't she!

    the only thing i'd add because i've been in your shoes - punkin likely had cancer and fluid accumulated very quickly in his abdomen and chest (from nothing to critical in about 3 days). If Lucy begins to have rattly or difficulty breathing, you may not be able to wait til sunday. i hope you can, but just in case you hear breathing sounds, the fluid in her chest may compress her lungs and make it hard to get a breath. i'm saying this not to scare you, but because i know you don't want her to suffer. punkin's lungs got squished to just a sliver and that decided it for us. praying she holds on til Sunday and you don't have to make the decision sooner.

    big hugs. julie
     
  35. Linda and Bear Man

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    I will be keeping you and Lucy in my thoughts this weekend, as you spend this precious time together.
     
  36. Cleo & Jane (GA)

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    (((Mariko))) Sending love and light to you and Lucy. Prayers that she stays comfortable until Sunday ♥
     
  37. Deb & Wink

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    {{{{{Mariko}}}}} You know we all are keeping you and Lucy in our thoughts and prayers. Hoping for a peaceful passing on Sunday.

    Be sure to take lots of pictures, feed her as many treats/food as she will eat, maybe snip a lock of fur, and love on her as much as possible.

    My one wish in the world is that we could eliminate cancer for both humans and our beloved pets.

    You will have many happy memories to cherish and you know you did your very, very best for Lucy.
     
  38. Rachel & Chyna (GA)

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    I am so sorry, Mariko :cry: . It's an awful decision to have to make, and you are a good bean to put Lucy first. I'm happy that the vet can come to you to spare her the trip to the place she hates and that you have time to say your goodbyes until you meet again. I hope that you are having some lovely quality time with Lucy. I wish I could do more for you, sending many hugs to you and Lucy and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: .
     
  39. Deborah & Shasta

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    (((Mariko))) (((Lucy)))

    Sending prayers and vines of strength and comfort to both of you. Give your girl some extra scritches from Shasta and me and know that you two are in our prayers.
     
  40. ChEMom

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    Praying for you and Lucy.
     
  41. Aleven

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    Hi Mariko. I'm new here but just wanted to say hi and let you know I'm thinking of you and Lucy. I'm so glad the vet can come to your house - it will make such a difference to your and Lucy's peace of mind. It's a hard decision but it's the right one. Many hearts.

    Anna
     
  42. Ann & Tess GA

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    Thinking of you today. Fly Free, sweet Lucy! wings_cat
     
  43. mariko

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    Re: 7/31 Lucy - I am letting her go on Sunday.

    Thank you very much everyone for so much love and friendship.

    Lucy is still with me, but getting increasingly weak.
    It is shocking and heart-breaking to see how fast this cancer is taking her abilities.

    She didn't eat much yesterday - ate about 1/4 of 3oz can and a small piece of fish.
    This morning, I offered her some raw chicken (blue kat), something she used to love but wasn't allowed, and she ate a little bit of that.
    I'll keep offering this throughout the day today, and she'll probably eat a little bit more but not much.
    She lets me bring water to her, and she drinks little at a time but often.
    She is now a bit too weak to steady herself in front of her usual water bowl and drink by herself.
    She's pooping, but she can no longer make it to her box for poo, which is fine by me because this way she won't get litter stuck to her bum and we don't have to do another bumbath which she hates so much.
    She's not pooping on herself, but she poops en route to the box.
    She is still very stubborn about going to the box by herself for peeing. And to the box she's always used, not the extra box I put right next to her ottoman.
    Today, she tried to go twice, but got too tired before she reached her box, so I carried her and put her in the extra box.
    No, she didn't go. She complained.
    But she eventually made it to there by herself, and peed. I was worried about her not peeing today, so I was glad.

    She's still getting insulin, just 0.25 unit, and she's been staying high blue - low yellow.
    I stopped giving her sub-q fluids since Wednesday because she feels quite "fluidy" now.
    Especially the abdomen area. Her tummy feels a bit like a balloon, not so expanded, but little bouncy even though there's no food in there.
    No wonder she can't walk, it must be so hard to be carrying so much water weight when she's already sick and weak. Poor girl.
    The vet told me that these fluids are not being absorbed so to give sub-q fluids if she's dehydrated, but she has been pooping little soft poo only once a day in the past 3 days, and I was afraid about adding up more fluids in her chest and causing breathing problem.
    Maybe tonight, if she seems dehydrated, I may give her the last sub-q fluids.
    Her breathing is OK so far.

    I dug out a toy that she used to love.
    I put it away a long time ago, because she's got tons of new toys and she doesn't really play anymore.
    But I dug it out yesterday, and put it on her ottoman.
    It's her first toy ever and the one she played with the most.
    It used to be a bumble bee.

    [​IMG]

    She never used to use this ottoman, but this is the only place she settles down now.
    I bought this many years ago because I thought "Oh this is perfect for the cats", and I'm glad it's finally being used.
    My brave girl still purrs. I am so very glad about it.
    We will spend all day today cuddling, talking, and loving each other.

    Ginger was just herself until about Wednesday, but she has been acting a bit different.
    I'm sure she's sensing something.
    I told her that I was sorry for not paying enough attention to her lately.
    She's been a good girl, and just being quite - too quite for her.
    I feel bad for her, but I need to concentrate on Lucy today and tomorrow.
    And Ginger can have her momma all to herself.

    I can tell Lucy's so very tired.
    I told her tomorrow she'll be free, so please stay with me a little bit longer.
    Please help me pray Lucy's body will hold till tomorrow.
     
  44. Michelle and Mannie (GA)

    Michelle and Mannie (GA) Well-Known Member

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    Re: 7/31&8/2 Lucy - I am letting her go on Sunday. - Update

    Mariko, my heart breaks for you. peace be with you, and Lucy. I remember Mannie's last moments: I too had that purr. I believed that it was his way of telling me it was OK. he was ready. Keeping you and your girl in my thoughts.
     
  45. tiffmaxee

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    This brings back so many memories for me. Stay strong, Mariko like you are!! No doubts. You are such a loving and caring bean. Ginger knows too and will also grieve. You will have plenty of time together. She understands. My heart is breaking with yours. Prayers and more prayers for all three of you.
     
  46. MollynSkooter

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    My heart is just breaking for you. I am glad you are able to spend this time with Lucy. I am sending you a great big hug and will be thinking of you today and tomorrow...
     
  47. Tricia Cinco(GA) & Harvey

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    Re: 7/31&8/2 Lucy - I am letting her go on Sunday. - Update

    {{{Mariko}}}

    My heart, too, is breaking. Reading your posts takes me back 15 years to when I lost my beloved Nemesis to pancreatic cancer. She, too, had the fluid in her abdomen. We put her through surgery to try to save her, but she left us anyway. Unlike you, I couldn't make that decision to let her go peacefully, and she crossed in my arms in the middle of the night. I regret to this day that I let her suffer so long. As Julie mentioned, the last day or so her breathing was rattly, so do be advised that is a bad sign. I pray you won't hear it, and that Lucy will have the peaceful, loving crossing you have planned. You both deserve that. Many hugs and vines to you and Lucy, and to Ginger, too. :YMHUG:
     
  48. Dyana

    Dyana Well-Known Member

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    You are very much in my thoughts, and I will keep praying that you get and give lots of love today, and that she makes it until tomorrow. Heartfelt Hugs to you
     
  49. Josie & Ripley (GA)

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    (((((Mariko))))) and (((((Sweetest Lucy)))))

    The picture is so beautiful. She looks tired but content. And so very loved.
    Keeping you both in my thoughts and heart. ♥♥♥
     
  50. Marje and Gracie

    Marje and Gracie Senior Member Moderator

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    ((((Mariko))))

    I'm glad you have that photo of her with her little bumble bee. Her wanting to go to her normal box shows she still has dignity and pride.....so important to our sweet babies. I hope every minute of this day has been only love and peace for you three. And our prayers for tomorrow will be for a peaceful, love-filled crossing where all the GAs, sugar babies or civvies, will be waiting for Lucy and will keep her good company until you are reunited.

    Sending much love and many prayers your way.
     
  51. Barb & Checkers (GA)

    Barb & Checkers (GA) Well-Known Member

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    ((( Mariko))), I've been thinking of you and Lucy, all day. I have been praying that you will find peace in your breaking heart.

    Barb
     
  52. ShadowsMom

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    Sending both of you vines of peace and comfort. What you are doing takes so much strength and love - and while the former may be exhausted, your supply of the latter will never run dry. I have faith that love will keep her going until you can give her that final Gift. ((((Mariko and dearest Lucy))))
     
  53. carfurby (GA)

    carfurby (GA) Well-Known Member

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    Sending more prayers and hugs to you and Lucy. That is such a sweet picture. :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  54. Tiger(GA) and Ruth

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    (((((Mariko and Lucy and Ginger)))))

    Sending tons more vines for strength and peace. Please know that we are praying for the three of you - that you and Lucy can have all those conversations and cuddle time, and hold these close to your heart for all times! I love that picture, I truly think you might want some with you and her and Ginger, this time is so special and will live in your heart forever. Do you remember the first day you met Lucy and Ginger? They say that that is one of the most memorable things about our kitties, so glad to hear you were able to spend all day with her and I hope she continues to have peace and as much comfort as possible until she can pass safely to the bridge. Prayers and hugs!
     
  55. tiffmaxee

    tiffmaxee Well-Known Member

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    I'm sending prayers for a peaceful night and a smooth transition tomorrow. Know that we are all sending prayers and love your way, Mariko.
     
  56. Tara & Buster

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    Breaks my heart to see this news. I'm so glad Lucy has such a wonderful bean to help her cross. Piling on gardens of vines for you both. Stay strong for Lucy. I hope she comes to visit you once she has settled in on the other side :YMHUG:
     
  57. Georgette and Clare

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    Thinking of you both and wishing you deep peace and comfort, Mariko.
     
  58. Deanna & Billie

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    ((((Mariko&Lucy))))

    You are both in my thoughts and I'm sending lots of love your way. Lucy looks so very sweet with her bumble bee. It's wonderful that you can spend this time at home together. I guess that's all we can ask for toward the end. My dog Taffy and I spent her last days that way, and I am forever grateful for that. I'm sure that Ginger understands and will be there for you. I'm wishing you all peace and comfort tonight and tomorrow (and beyond).
     
  59. Laura&Chichi (GA)

    Laura&Chichi (GA) Well-Known Member

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    You will be in my thoughts and prayers today..(((mariko)))..
     
  60. Picknickchick

    Picknickchick Well-Known Member

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    Sending you endless love, dear ones.
    I've already told Jack and Gus to be ready with nose kisses.
     
  61. tiffmaxee

    tiffmaxee Well-Known Member

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    Thinking of you three at this most difficult of days. Knowing that you will be at peace, dear Lucy, I only hope that you can be as well, Mariko. Just knowing you are doing the right thing at the right time helps just a little I hope. Hugs.
     
  62. Amy&TrixieCat

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    Our thoughts, prayers, love, and hugs are with you today and always, Mariko, Lucy, and Ginger....
     
  63. Angela & Blackie & 3 Others

    Angela & Blackie & 3 Others Well-Known Member

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    {{{{{MARIKO}}}}}
     
  64. mariko

    mariko Well-Known Member

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    Thank you very much for your continuing support and prayers.
    It is today.
    I have cried a lot in the past one week, but I cried very little yesterday.
    I now have no doubt that Lucy is ready and that the time has come, the timing is right.

    I have been sleeping on the sofa for the past few days, so I can be near her on the ottoman.
    Last night, I wasn't even going to sleep on the sofa, but I was going to sleep leaning on the ottoman, hugging her.
    When we were going to bed, she stepped down from the ottoman using the pet stairs, and I thought she was going to pee.
    Since she doesn't let me help her, and it takes her like 20 minutes to go to and back from her box, I started making a cup of tea for myself.
    But instead of heading towards the box, she positioned herself on the cushion I put next to the ottoman for me to sit.
    What an amazing girl till the end.
    I slept the last night with her spooning her, smelling her all night - my most favorite way to sleep.

    She doesn't want to eat anything today.
    We will just spend all day cuddling with each other, both our most favorite thing in the world.

    It will be at around 4:30pm, Pacific Daylight Time.
    Thank you for thinking of her.
     
  65. carfurby (GA)

    carfurby (GA) Well-Known Member

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    Lucy is such a sweet kitty. I'm glad you got to spend the night with her. Sending you prayers and hugs. :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  66. julie & punkin (ga)

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    thinking of you . . .
     
  67. MrZ

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    My heart is heavy for you Mariko because I know you will miss Lucy greatly but it is a little less heavy knowing that you are at peace with your decision and that you know this IS the right time. I wish you continued peace in knowing that Lucy will be in a better place free of pain, waiting to see you - the most loving and selfless momma bean a kitty could ever be so fortunate to have - again. :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  68. donaleen and Ozy

    donaleen and Ozy Well-Known Member

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    Thinking of you and Lucy, Mariko.
     
  69. Sandy and Black Kitty

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    (((((Mariko & Lucy))))))

    Sending vines of comfort and peace your way. . .

    we will be with you in spirit
     
  70. Josie & Ripley (GA)

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    ♥♥♥ Mariko and Lucy ♥♥♥
    What a perfect night.
    Holding both of you in my heart today.
     
  71. Georgette and Clare

    Georgette and Clare Member

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    Hugs to you in your sorrow, {{Mariko}}, and to {{Lucy}} -- your family and friends will be with you always!
     
  72. lovey11

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    Sending love and hugs to Lucy and Mariko. You didn't have much of choice in this Mariko with the cancer but you handled her final days with such love, grace and dignity for her. You are an amazing bean.

    My mom was praying one night like she always does and she saw a vision of our family dog Joy who passed away many years ago in heaven.
     
  73. Marje and Gracie

    Marje and Gracie Senior Member Moderator

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    (((Mariko))). My heart is breaking for you but I am so glad that you and Lucy have had this time together this weekend to share your amazing bond and love for each other. Even though you know she has made this decision, it is still going to be a very difficult day for you but I do hope and pray that when it is done, you will know peace that you gave her all the love anyone could give a companion and you set her free because of that love.

    Thinking of you.
     
  74. Anne & Zener GA

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    I'm glad you're at peace, Mariko. You've given Lucy the best life. Thinking of you.
    Liz
     
  75. Barb & Checkers (GA)

    Barb & Checkers (GA) Well-Known Member

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    (((Mariko))).......What a beautiful way to spend the night. I'm holding you and Lucy in my heart today.
     
  76. Picknickchick

    Picknickchick Well-Known Member

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    4:30 I'll be singing the most beautiful songs I know.

    I give to you and you give to me
    True love, true love
    So on and on it will always be
    True love, true love

    For you and I have a guardian angel
    On high, with nothing to do
    But to give to you and to give to me
    Love forever true
     
  77. Tiger(GA) and Ruth

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    (((((Mariko, Lucy and Ginger))))) Reading your last post made me cry all over again, but in a good way because you just were able to give Lucy the best possible way to spend her last night, in your arms and surrounded by love! I hate this tablet I'm using, too many mistakes :oops: I just wanted to say that I so admire your courage and candor and for making the best out of this situation. You were not given many choices in this matter, but you clearly made the best of it, you gave her dignity and honor as she prepares to cross the bridge. Sending more vines and God Bless you!
     
  78. Squeaky and KT (GA)

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    We'll be singing at 4:30 PST this afternoon too....many extra thoughts and prayers for both of you as you love her across...
     
  79. Tina & Rocky

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    {{Mariko}} I will praying for the both of you today.. many blessings, Tina
     
  80. Chris & China (GA)

    Chris & China (GA) Well-Known Member

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    Praying it will be a peaceful and dignified crossing for Lucy today.

    You've been an amazing bean and continue to be by letting her go. Only wish there was a way to ease the pain for you Mariko.

    {{{Mariko, Lucy and Ginger}}}
     
  81. Tricia Cinco(GA) & Harvey

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    {{{Mariko}}}

    What a beautiful memory to sustain you in the difficult days ahead. You are an amazing bean. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I'll light a candle at 4:30 to help light Lucy's way to the bridge.

    Many hugs. :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  82. Wendy&Neko

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    (((Mariko))) I've been thinking of you and Lucy and Ginger all day. :YMHUG: I'm so glad I got to meet your beautiful sweet girl. You had a perfect night with her last night. You are such a generous person and I'm sure Lucy knows it. Sending more peace, light, and love your way.
     

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    ((((Mariko))))

    You and Lucy are in my thoughts. I hope it is a peaceful crossing.
     
  84. Dyana

    Dyana Well-Known Member

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    You know I'll be thinking about you too. Big Hugs.
     
  85. ChEMom

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    Looking at the clock, and knowing it's almost time, and crying, but praying for peace for you and Lucy. wings_cat
     
  86. donaleen and Ozy

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    Lighting a candle for Mariko and Lucy....
     
  87. MollynSkooter

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    Sending up my thoughts and prayers to you and your furbabies....

    I pray that Lucy has a peaceful passing and Ginger is able to comfort you during this time....


    wings_cat
     
  88. knolet

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    (((Mariko)))

    I am so sorry. Sending tons of hugs and vines of peace and comfort. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Kathie
     
  89. AZJenks

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    Taking a moment of silence, in honor of Lucy.
     
  90. Sandy and Black Kitty

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  91. Chris & China (GA)

    Chris & China (GA) Well-Known Member

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    Lighting a candle to help guide her to the bridge where peace awaits dear Lucy.

    Fly free sweet Lucy, and land softly. There are many at the bridge to welcome you and be with you until the one you love most comes to join you

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  92. rhiannon and shadow (GA)

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  93. MJ+Donovan

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    lighting Butthead's candle for Lucy... :cry:

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    MJ
     
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