Gosh... I wish I understood this “
phenomenon”... is there really
no reasoning? Seriously
I think it's just the nature of the beast (FD)...I just think every day when I'm poking Luci and giving her insulin that I'm doing the best I can for her - she's got a disease - and I'm making her feel better, healthy and comfortable. Last year around this time she was dealing with her diabetes all by herself - drinking a ton of water and peeing a lot - and was forever starving!! Bugging me for food and never seeming full...and I was feeding her DRY kibble - and cans of FF in the morning and at night - and a big bowl of kibble for all day in between...I didn't know any better - but I was killing her with that cheap kibble (even though it was a good brand for Senior cats, indoor cats, or hairball relief)...whatever -
I was buying the industry propaganda and thinking I was taking good care of her. Little did I know that she had diabetes until we decided before we were leaving for Florida - just to take her in for a check up - find out what all that water consumption was about - stunned then to find out she had high blood glucose - 374. Vet recommended to just put her down - I was devastated.
So reliving that and the daily things I do for her now - I'll take every poke, every shot and Luci purring over that death sentence any day. Yep, it's a life altering experience - yep I've changed many plans to sit home with Luci while her BG's went all over the place - the lows were the scariest...up late at night, spending more money than I ever imagined on this...but here we are...still at it...and I'm not giving up...
Some days she gets my hopes up - all those nice low numbers
- and then she just takes a turn and throws out some super high number - why?
Does anyone know? She's just not ready for remission - she may never be - and I've accepted that - you will too in time - it's just something that kinda takes time - lots of time - some cats rush down the road to remission - and some just don't - some never make it..others take their sweet ole time.
What will Luci do today? What will Nellie do today? No one knows...It's a fickle disease this diabetes...completely baffling...like so many other disease of both human and animal...don't we all wish we had more insight...and that darn crystal ball would really help out at times like these.
It could be other issues that Nelli's having (with her teeth)...and other kitties have all sorts of health issues to go along with their full plate of FD...
All I can say is that you're among a group who have all experienced your frustrations, joy, sleepless nights, grief...just to name a few of the emotions we all see on this forum every day...the ups and downs...just like our beloved kitties BG's up/down..this is the sugar dance darling...step left, right, back forward...one, two, three...and then we'll do it all again tomorrow...and the day after that and then some more...
Hang in there Krystina...try not to overthink it and just roll with it...
Shall we dance?
I see blue.