I have to find a new home for him. With my OCD i just cant take the strees of worring about him constantly and not being able to afford the poroper care for him. Its like im on the verge of a nervous break down 24 7 . My father passed away and I'm taking care of my elderly mother her dog and 3 other rescued cats. I cant stop worring about his bg levels so i test him way to much which i cant afford to do. My stress is affecting my mother and the other animals. My mom's dog is breaking out in rashes and constantly depressed over it and goes after him. Guess ive been fooling myself thinking I could manage his diabetes without worrying myself sick. I was doing good with the 4 I've rescued from the streets but 2 months ago he was diagnosed . Two I've had for 15 years the other two about 2 and half years. Three of them are outside during day and up at night but Beawulf had no claws when I found him so he stays in. Don't want to give him up but it is looking like I may have to. It hurts my head so bad because he is the only cat that I have that doesn't have a mean bone in his body. I need a home for him that will not treat him like a pet but like member of the family .