Hi I’d like to start by saying thank you all for being here. I’m about to have a nervous breakdown. In tears, scared, guilty and having unbearable thoughts I can’t imagine I’d ever have. Please talk me down. Davis is 7 y/o as of May. He’s bonded still with his littermate sister and me. He’s my little boy. My 4 legged fur child. I don’t have 2 legged children and don’t expect I will. He’s my true love. We’ve already suffered with FLUTD and last June, Asthma. Now steroid induced Diabetes on Monday confirmed with urine glucose keto stick test. I’m already doing a lot. I’m barely leaving the house except for work and appts, errands close to home and occasionally to see a friend (rare). (Since flutd and then asthma dx) We have gotten through so much and I can’t imagine life without my baby boy. Yet here I am, crying and thinking he’d be better off with someone who can take better care of him. A vet tech or vet trained to manage all of his illnesses. I’m afraid I can’t do this. And if I do, I’ll never get out of the house to do other important things for my life. If he had 2 legs I’m sure I’d never think this. Or maybe I would? Maybe I’m that awful. They’re beside me sleeping in spoon snuggle as I write this. I love them most in the world. They must stay together. I have ZERO support and financially I live paycheck to paycheck. My health is suffering. My job is on the line. My family moved away and I won’t be able to visit them if I can’t leave. My parents are elderly. I have no idea how to keep him safe and happy while I’m at work all day. I can’t afford to hire anyone on the daily. And who?? I did post locally but no response yet. Vet tech sitter is unavailable due to family illness. How did you all get through this? Am I the only one completely freaking out upon learning our lives have just changed so completely for the worst?? I know I sound crazy. I feel crazy. But the idea of losing him to my ineptness or any other way is making me sick. I can’t handle one more thing right now. And this happened. What should I do??