Fly free, my sweet baby Shiloh

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Donna & Shiloh (GA)

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My heart is very heavy today. I decided not to let Shiloh suffer any more. Thru years of a sporatic appetite and chronic pancreatitis, he always seemed to bounce back. Not so this time. He was very sick in Dec. and never seemed to really be himself again. His weight was dropping little by little. I had to give him stimulants to get him to eat.

His corneal ulcers appeared to be healing, but one wasn't. Last week he started getting drainage, and vet ordered eye drops and eye washes. Went for a recheck yesterday, and pus was filling up the inside of his eye. Vet said that even tho the outside healed, some infection was still inside, and got worse. But because he wasn't eating well and dropped a few more ounces, vet wanted to do another ultrasound. Today was that day.

Last night I told Shi if the US shows anything bad, I did not want him to suffer thru another bad pancreatitis attack like in Dec. I did not want him to stay just because of me. I couldn't sleep last night. The vet called me and said the US showed a worsening pancreas, possible cancer. They wanted to do a needle biopsy tomorrow. His eye looked very bad today, and they thought they might have to remove it. I said, no, nothing more. He has been thru 9 years of diabetes, sticks and pricks and feeding tubes and IVs and being in the scary hospital, no, I do not want him to go thru any more pain.

I talked to Shiloh about the Bridge, and how he would not be in pain anymore. How he could find McKaela and that they would get along better now, how he could run and play (hopefully he won't be afraid of the grass there!) and no more stickers.

The past 9 years have revolved around his insulin shots. I have no cats and no shots. It feels so strange.

He went very peacefully with me holding him and telling him how much I love him. The only thing I wish is that an animal communicator could prepare him, like I did for Kaely. I intend to send Jean an email now to see if she can contact him yet. Wouldn't I love to hear he is fine.

I do not see me going without cats for a long time. There are too many cats needing homes. I plan on adopting 2 cats that should be adopted together, but they have to be really nice, affectionate kitties.

Thanks to you all for your kind words and prayers thru out the years on Shiloh's behalf. We could not have made it without you! Donna
 
Oh no, ohhhh no...(((((Donna))))) I'm so sorry but you did right by your boy. I am struggling with the same decision... Fly free sweet Shiloh this board just wont be the same without you.
Tears,
jeanne
 
I am very very saddened that Shiloh has went on. I remember him will from the days the my GreyGhost (GA) and Mario (GA) was still here.
 
My heart goes out to you... it is so sad that we have lost Shiloh .. I have been on the board since July 2005 and remember Shiloh so well such a sweet kitty. He can never be replaced but there are many other kitties that need your help and love as you mentioned..... Shiloh will live in your heart forever.
 
Oh Donna, my heart breaks for you. You and Shiloh went through so much together and what an awesome caregiver you were to him. I understand the emptiness you are feeling right now after all you two went through together and you have my deepest and most heartfelt sympathy. May all your precious memories help you through the "moments".

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I'm so sorry to see this, (((Donna))). Shiloh and you fought hard and I'm sorry it was his time but glad he had you to give him this gift.

Run free, dear Shiloh.
 
Donna, words escape me. I remember Shiloh having a feeding tube for months and how, when Charlie had to get one, I thought of you and Shi and thought that if you could do it , so could we. Your dedication and love for him were clear, and you proved it once again today. I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you. Fly free, Shiloh, and give Charlie a headbutt for me ...
 
My dearest Donna ~ I'm so sorry Shiloh has gone to be with Kaely. Shiloh was a fighter against every health problem that showed up. Your precious Shiloh only wanted to be with you.

Shiloh loved you so much, Donna! Everywhere you were, Shiloh wanted to be there.

My heart aches for you. (((((((Donna)))))))

Linda Lee
 
Oh my!

I am so sorry. I am speechless.

He knows that he was loved. I know that Spader was also there to meet him so they could talk about us.

I am so sorry.

Also, I think it is wonderful that you want to adopt two kitties as a pair when the time is right. You'll know when it's time. After Spader passed away, I wan't ready to add a full time indoor buddy for Henry right away. He and I needed to mourn. About two months later, Henry and I just kind of looked at each other and knew that it was time t find the right buddy for him. I told the rescue group what we needed and they led me straight to Oliver.


You are in my thoughts.
 
NOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Donna, my friend - I am so sorry to see this. Not our Shiloh gone now also. Another of our beloved long-time board kitties has had to say goodbye. I share your grief in the loss of your wonderful handsome boy.

What a wonderful gift you gave him - he doesn't have to go through any more pain or discomfort - I'm sure at this point, he's with McKaela. She and all the others who have left here ahead of him were waiting to comfort him - and he can now roam freely - young and pain-free. But the hole left by his leaving - in your heart and life - and here on the board - is huge and we all grieve with you.

I'm sending many many comforting prayers - and I do hope that with all the love and knowledge that you have to share, you definitely will find others to give love to - in Shi and Kaela's memory.

Sending many, many hugs to you, my friend.

Emmy & Dude (& Mittsi too)
 
Oh NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dreaded this day and this post. ((((((((((((((((((((((((DONNA))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Many many tears falling here, heart heavy. Shiloh is the definition of FIGHTER. You both fought so hard for life. You did the only thing you could, letting him rest, and fly free. Merlyn will be on the lookout for him.

Shiloh is flying free now, whole and healthy over the Rainbow Bridge. rb_icon

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The board has lost another BOARD CAT... one of the special ones.
 
My dearest Donna,

I am so, so, so very sorry... I remember when he ate on his own!





Wasn't it ham?



And, you were so astonished? We all were!

























You and Shiloh have always been an inspiration to Giz and I... She was a tough eater, too... But, nothing like you and Shi...





























Sometimes, there are no words when we lose a truly special one... They are all special and we all feel their mommy's and daddy's pain, please don't get me wrong.



But, then there's Shiloh and you, dearest Donna... Who, simply and wondrously and heroically define the best in us. On a great day!





















I don't think there's enough return keys left...
























Please accept my most heartfelt condolences and deepest sympathies, dearest Donna... It took many, many, many months, almost a year, before I met a spider in my shower who I named Charlotte... And, then, knew it was time for my aching heart to have room to love again...










A healing heart takes time to heal. But, the heart is such a wondrous organ... May your wondrous heart take time to heal... And, then, the loving memories flood your heart! There are so many wondrous, healing memories...

You have always been such a loving inspiration to us all!




























Sigh... Heavy, heavy sigh...
























Fly free, precious Shiloh! Soar high on your incredible wings! You will undoubtedly be greeted by a parade at The Bridge! And, please know how much you are loved! And, please, visit your mommy's dreams to let her know both you and she are okay now. She's going to need extra dream visits...

And, please, do keep your dance card open, as the furry girls are lining up to dance with you, handsome, wondrous furry prince! Okay, Giz might be a little pushy in line; but, boy, can she dance...

You're candle is bright! But, darling, boy, I'm lighting a fire for you tomorrow... It's my way of lighting a zillion candles at once...





















There is not enough Kleenex in the world to deal with your loss, dearest Donna...








Much love and countless gentle hugs hoping you take good care of you, sweetie,
Deb











Solace

From the silence of your pain I heard my name
and on the wings of light I have come
to see the sadness in your eyes
that cry without tears.

Can you see me? I am here.

I will always be near you
to calm your shattered heart
and to make you smile at the memories.

Do you feel me, perhaps a soft brush of fur?

You ache to believe it's real
but you are afraid to hope.

You brush away a strand of hair
But it was I, whispering.....

I am only here for but a moment;
The silver thread gently quivers.
I will leave behind my love in a dream.

When you awaken, and without really knowing why
Your heart will know at last
That it is all right, for now
to say good-bye.

Copyright © Lisa Carmel Singer Printed with permission
 
donna, i made the same decision for harry tuesday morning so i totally get it. it is so so hard even when you know it's the right thing to do. they own such a large piece of us, we will never be the same.
fly high and free, shiloh, healthy and whole again.
 
dear donna i m so ver yverr y sorry for your loss. i totally understand how your heart aches. great love + great loss = great pain. these precious little babies give us so much, ask for so little , and we are bereft without them
i understand too your comment about not being without a furry or two for long. i lasted exactly nine days after i lost my baby sophie last september before i got sapphire and i do not regret it for a second. she is so sweet and affectionate
wishing you peace donna, come over to grief when you need to where we are all there for each other
(((((donna)))))

diana x
 
Godspeed Sweet Shiloh,
(((Donna))),
You did a brave and loving act in letting releasing Shiloh from his earthly pain.
Prayers,
Dana
 
(((((Donna))))) The day none of us wanted to see come. Your sorrow is deep, as is your love, for Shiloh. He will always hold that special place in your heart. Fly free, sweet Shiloh. wings_cat
 
(((Donna))) I am so very sorry. The love that you and Shiloh have for each other, it's been an inspiration. In time, when you're ready, two very lucky kitties will have the most purrfect home and that will be a tribute to Shiloh and to you. Fly free sweet (((Shiloh)))
 
(( Donna ))

I'm so sorry you had to let Shiloh go. As prepared as you may have been, we're never quite ready to say goodbye. I have no doubt you'll find a pair of kitties that need you as much as you need them. I hope you "hear" from Shiloh soon and that you'll find comfort in memories of happier times with him.
 
Fly Free Shiloh

(((Donna)))

Shiloh always reminded me of my own little warrior, Clouseau... His bravery and the fact that your love alone kept him going as long as he did is an inspiration to me and others with "special" kitties. He is in very good company at the bridge...

I know you will open your heart to more furbabies when the time is right, and they will be very very lucky to have you!

Sheryl & Clouseau (GA)
 
oh donna, I am so sorry that it had to come to this. I know how much you loved your babies and how hard it is to make the decision. you and shi tried your utmost to stay together but it was not meant to be. God had other plans. I know you know that you gave the most special, selfless gift of love anyone can give. I feel your loss.
hang in there my friend and do indeed get in touch with an AC. it does help with the loss and knowing you did the right thing. I did that for mr chubbs and it does make you feel better in that way at least. the loss will be great and I think other kitties will help with that loss. I know my guys pulled me through. did not make it any less but easier in some way KWIM?
this was given to me at my loss. and I pass it on to you

So one last time, I breathe your scent,
And through your hand I feel,
The courage that's within you
To now grant me this appeal.

Cut the leash that holds me here,
Dear friend, and let me run,
Once more a strong and steady cat,
My pain and struggle done.

And don't despair my passing
For I won't be far away,
Forever here, within your heart
And memory I'll stay.

I'll be there watching over you,
Your ever faithful friend,
And in your memories I'll run,
. . . A young cat once again.
 
(((((((Donna))))))) so sorry about losing Shiloh -- know that he is now pain-free and happily greeting our friends who crossed the bridge before him. Fly free, ~~~~Shiloh~~~~!
 
Donna, I am so sorry for your loss of Shiloh. You did so much to keep him healthy and happy, and by letting him go you gave him the ultimate gift. My heart goes out to you. I know that other cats won't replace Shiloh, but I hope you will adopt soon. :YMHUG:

Fly Free Shiloh! wings_cat
 
((((((Donna)))))) I'm so sorry you had to let him go...there just comes a time when you have to do what's best for your babies no matter how heartbreaking. Please know I'm sharing your tears.....

Fly free sweet boy.....you have many sugarcat friends to play with
 
Donna, so sorry for your loss. But, you gave Shiloh a great gift - no more pain. (((Donna))) and Fly Free Shiloh.

Claudia
 
Oh Donna, I am so sorry! I know Shiloh could tell what you were telling him, and he was prepared. All the GAs are greeting him at the bridge. I know that he is bragging about how much you love him and how well you cared for him! In the end, you spared him more suffering and gave him the ultimate gift of unconditional love by taking his pain to be yours. He is now healthy and restored and waiting for the day you are reunited. I've been in that no-cats/no-shots situation, and it is really weird. Now you can take some time for yourself. We are all grieving with you. Shiloh will be sorely missed.

Tears,
Karen, dB in spirit, Bindi, Dorje, and Little Girl
 
I am so sorry for your loss.

Shiloh will never be forgotten...he was a much-loved kitty and
also loved you very much.

Wishing you comfort and peace with your decision. The ultimate gift
for you to take his pain upon your self.

Fly free, sweet Shiloh.
 
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