8/7 TASHIE AMPS 585/+5.75=274

http://www.felinediabetes.com/FDMB/viewtopic.php?f=9&t=101666

Again, true confession time. I am so very tired. I don't sleep well at the best of times and I am SO sleep deprived right now that I feel like a zombie. I have now not slept since the 4 or so hours I got SUNDAY night. Had to "abort" her cycle Monday night due to a family emergency and I was up all night. I tried to nap yesterday but it just doesn't work for me. Last night I was fading fast and Tashie pulls another low - very quickly - she drops about 100 points an hour. I pulled myself together and was doing fine ........until about 1AM, I was getting spacy......she was at 58 - I SO SO SO wanted her to go under 50 ...... and she probably would have but I gave her a few syringes of gravy in my sleepless state and RUINED her cycle yet again! I was starting to get lightheaded and my pokes were shaky and had to do multiple times - Once I finally went to bed - with SO MUCH GUILT - I didn't sleep! I tossed all night and DH was SNORING and I would have been better off to just stay up all night with her.

If you have ever had such sleep deprivation you'll somewhat understand. I am just not one of those people that can get up, test, set an alarm and go back to bed and sleep and get up - I get wired and wide awake. This is a problem right now because little Tashie is getting in some great numbers and I keep ruining it. SHE IS my #1 priority but I'm finding it hard with no sleep to be able to pull "all nighter's" with her, right now that is when she seems to be dropping low.

Fortunately, I have a flexible schedule right now and I will TRY to nap again today. Even if I "take something" it doesn't work. I am a super duper type "A" and my mind goes on over drive - and then there is the part that I sometimes think I'm "afraid" to sleep due to Tashie going too low and I worry so much! I have a deep fear of finding her - well, you know.......

Yeah, I probably need to go to a shrink but how can you make an appointment when you have a diabetic kitty! I just need sleep!

Re: 8/7 TASHIE AMPS 585 - Screwed up AGAIN!

Don't kick yourself so much. You are surrounded by many here who live what you are going thru.

Back when I was giving shots, I couldn't sleep either.... mostly worry. Afraid I'd miss something critical, just like you....
The first two months I read everyone else's experiences and learned so much.
I eventually got a better rhythm when I moved to the couch....and set the alarm. That way I wasn't waking DH and there were times when I just opened my eyes to see where the cat was.... meaning to test but just didn't get up.....

It's like having a baby. You just do the best you can. And eventually your body learns to take the sleep when you can get it.... cuz something is better than nothing.
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Re: 8/7 TASHIE AMPS 585 - Screwed up AGAIN!

Hi guys .. don't be so hard on yourself .. juggling everything that comes along with FD is hard on us .. you'll soon get into a rhythm that works best for you guys .. and when you do, tashie will change things up .. :lol: Sorry, just trying to make you smile a bit .. remember we've all been there and we understand your frustrations .. hang in there, you're doing great!

Re: 8/7 TASHIE AMPS 585 - Screwed up AGAIN!

Tashie seems to do a lot of bouncing. My Papaya does that too - she`s been hitting every colour of the rainbow since she started Lantus last October, and is JUST starting to really level out and hold some decreases. I'm guessing Tashie might have still bounced right up to that high preshot just from dropping to the green, no matter what you did last night. (Like on 7/31 when it looks like you did stay up all night monitoring, and she still bounced to HIGH). So don`t be too hard on yourself - do the best you can, and keep moving forward. That`s all any of us can do! Hang in there!

Well......if mummy didn't keep messing up her :mrgreen: cycles .... she might be lower! But, I guess the good new is that she IS lower than she was mid cycle yesterday so, I am off to "see" if I can catch a "cat nap" as it could be another night .......only Tashie knows!

Tashie is keeping things interesting as usual.

Hey Bern - yes, listen to everyone and don't be so hard on yourself. SHe goes down really fast and it's scary so I don't blame you for strainin' the gravy! You will get used to it eventually and be a little braver and know where you can push things.

You're doing a GREAT job!