Barb and Tori
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My beautiful Tori went to the Rainbow Bridge this morning around 10 AM. A couple of days ago you folks told me that I would know for sure when it was time- that she would let me know and she did. Last night I slept on the couch with her and we watched Les Miserables together. She always loved music my Tori. She laid on my chest like she used to do when she was a baby and purred and purred. Then she would get up and go and lie under the coffee table for awhile. At one point I took her down to the litter box and she ran into my daughter's room and hid under the bed, So unlike her.
This morning when I woke up she was under the coffee table again. When I picked her up to love her and laid her on my chest again she could hardly lift her head. She didn't purr. I thought then that she was ready to go. My original plan had been to have her blood work repeated to see where she was at and if it wasn't improved to bring her home for a few hours to spend a bit more time with her. That just seemed to be too pointless and cruel. I told her that she didn't have to fight anymore if she didn't want to. She looked at me and then snuggled down into my arms again. I knew then that it was time. I called my son and he and his girlfriend came over to the house. By that time Ayanna and Heather were up. She perked right up at that point and really enjoyed all the loving that everyone was giving her. I think it was her way of saying goodbye.
Her actual passing was peaceful and so like Tori. When Doug went to find a vein to give her the meds she let out a typical little growl just like she always did. Then she looked at him with such peace and love in her eyes. I hummed a lullaby to her while she passed. Later on when we were alone I sang it to her and told her again that I loved her more than the moon , the stars and the sun and that I would forever and a day. Funny even in death she looked so beautiful. When the receptionist came in to get me to sign something she didn't realize that she was already gone.
So my little Warrior Princess has joined her baby brother Tiga and all our other kitties at the Bridge. I can imagine there is quite a reunion going on right now.
Later on I will post Tori's story. I think it is one that those of you who don't know it will love to hear. Also Kina promised that she will post some picture of my baby for me and she will finally get her avatar as well. I want you to know what my baby looks like. For now if you have a calendar turn to April and Missy Kitty is there.
Thank you all for your love and support without it I would not have gotten through this morning. God I miss my baby so much. This hurts so much. There will never be another Tori or as Doug liked to call her Queen Victoria.
This morning when I woke up she was under the coffee table again. When I picked her up to love her and laid her on my chest again she could hardly lift her head. She didn't purr. I thought then that she was ready to go. My original plan had been to have her blood work repeated to see where she was at and if it wasn't improved to bring her home for a few hours to spend a bit more time with her. That just seemed to be too pointless and cruel. I told her that she didn't have to fight anymore if she didn't want to. She looked at me and then snuggled down into my arms again. I knew then that it was time. I called my son and he and his girlfriend came over to the house. By that time Ayanna and Heather were up. She perked right up at that point and really enjoyed all the loving that everyone was giving her. I think it was her way of saying goodbye.
Her actual passing was peaceful and so like Tori. When Doug went to find a vein to give her the meds she let out a typical little growl just like she always did. Then she looked at him with such peace and love in her eyes. I hummed a lullaby to her while she passed. Later on when we were alone I sang it to her and told her again that I loved her more than the moon , the stars and the sun and that I would forever and a day. Funny even in death she looked so beautiful. When the receptionist came in to get me to sign something she didn't realize that she was already gone.
So my little Warrior Princess has joined her baby brother Tiga and all our other kitties at the Bridge. I can imagine there is quite a reunion going on right now.
Later on I will post Tori's story. I think it is one that those of you who don't know it will love to hear. Also Kina promised that she will post some picture of my baby for me and she will finally get her avatar as well. I want you to know what my baby looks like. For now if you have a calendar turn to April and Missy Kitty is there.
Thank you all for your love and support without it I would not have gotten through this morning. God I miss my baby so much. This hurts so much. There will never be another Tori or as Doug liked to call her Queen Victoria.
