Kitty 5/22 --She is Gone....

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  1. kse

    kse Well-Known Member

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    Good Morning,

    Against EVERYTHING that I have said recently..... I took Kitty to the Vet School this morning. She was alert and came to the kitchen to eat this morning, so I decided to take her for blood work to see if it will reveal anything. When I got her into the vet school, she was sitting up in her carrier and very attentive. I am not sure what I "expect" to hear from them---BUT, at least I will hopefully know more about what is going on. They want to do a glucose cure--- I told them that they could, but that I was not interested in it, that I was feeding her high carb food because that was all that she would eat and that I was confident the diabetes was not her problem. I also told them that under NO circumstances would I switch her insulin at this time--that I was comfortable with Prozinc and that I was NOT shooting a shed builiding insulin into her--- given her supressed appetite. I agreed to have blood work completed, but that NO other tests were to be performed without my approval-- I refuse to make her last days uncomfortable due to diagnositc tests. BUT, if there is a chance that a medicine change or something like anemia is the problem--- I want to know.

    So, I am waiting to hear from them.

    Thanks for your concern and support....
     
  2. Squeaky and KT (GA)

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    Re: Kitty 5/22 -- At the Vet

    I'm sittin' right here with you....wait, gotta go start the brush pile burning but I'll be back shortly to sit with you some more...

    HUGS - head kiss for KittyGirl...
     
  3. Doug N Libby

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    Just got home from Jessica's annual physical, but now I'm here with you, too.

    Hugs and Prayers -

    Libby
     
  4. Sue and Oliver (GA)

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    Me too. We're all here, hoping for good news, with fingers and paws crossed for Miss Kitty.

    You get the Kitty Mommy of the week award, Kim, for explaining what you want and what you don't want for her. :thumbup
     
  5. sophie

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    Hey, hey Kitty! Alert is good! Kim, my mom had anemia basically all of her life and was treated with vitamin B complex. Her blood count was generally high in white cells and low in reds. Finally, her doctors (blood specialists) concluded her body was just weird that way! She did just fine. Vets must have checked Kitty for low thyroid functions? I'm writing this because, although I knew about hydration's dangers for heart failure and pneumonia in humans, I didn't say anything because I didn't want to sound preachy. So now I'm overcompensating and I putting down any scrap of knowledge I have. Take care, hon. Sophie
     
  6. kse

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    The things we do for love---- I let her go. As much as it breaks my heart to tell you, Kitty left the Alley this morning for a better place.

    The blood work showed nothing-- her heart and kidneys were stable and the Ptitis had improved. She was no more anemic than she was 2 months ago. So, there was nothing the vets could offer other than palliative care to possibly extend her time with me. There was no way that I could continue to push those pills down her mouth all day, just for my selfishness. So, I let Cool Kitty go. We had a wonderful life together-- she loved me and I loved her totally. My heart breaks-- but, I know she is not suffering.

    I can't thank my PZI family enough for the support and encouragement you have given me over the last year and a half. I will be forever grateful.

    I think you all know, how special Kitty was to me-- I loved her dearly.

    Saint Sue, I wish the candle was a mistake---but, not this time.

    I love you all--- thanks for allowing me to share my special Kitty with you.

    My heart is breaking.

    Kim
     
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  8. Squeaky and KT (GA)

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    ..my heart is broken but I feel so peaceful that you know it was right.....fly free my sweet girl....

    Hug Kim and everyone else...
     
  9. Doug N Libby

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  10. Sue and Oliver (GA)

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    Oh, Kim, my heart is breaking with yours. I know you went in with the idea that there might be a fix. I am sure it was a shock to get such bad news and then to make such a heartbreaking decision.

    I truly, truly believe that letting them leave this earth and the pain they are experiencing here is a wonderful gift for them. But for us, it is so hard and leaves such a hole. Your life has been so entwined with your lovely Miss Kitty for so long and you were so entuned with what was happening with her. What a life she had with you - full of love and incredible caring and lots of good treats and things to eat and brothers and sisters to play with. I always picture her out on your sunporch soaking up the rays.

    Please know we grieve with you and care for you and your sweet Miss Kitty. Hugs and more hugs coming to you across the miles.
     
  11. nancy and payne

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    Kim, I remember the day that you started to post, Kitty so much like Payne and the journey we took together, I will be forever grateful for you letting us take that journey with you. Cool Kitty loved you so and you loved her, that never leaves you. You made the ultimate sacrifice in doing what she needed, not in what you wanted. My prayers are with you today, Kim.
    Nancy ......
     
  12. Laura and Harley (GA)

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    Oh Kim, tears are streaming down my face as I read this. I'm so sorry for your loss of your beautiful brave girl.

    :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:

    Fly Free Cool Kitty...and land softly into your mama's heart.
    wings_cat
     
  13. Mystery

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    I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Sincerest sympathies to you and all who loved Cool Kitty. :(
     
  14. MayBTheresHope

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    I am so very sorry for your loss. I was really hoping that you would hear some good news. God bless you both, Kim and Kitty.
     
  15. Barbara

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    Kim, I was shocked to see that candle. I really thought there might be something else they could do...that she was anemic. I can hardly type this...I'm so sorry but you did the right thing. You are right, it was not fair to Kitty to keep forcing those pills on her. It's so hard to loose them, they are never with us long enough. Prayers & hugs to you. :YMHUG: wings_cat
     
  16. Jenn & Baxter

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    Everyday I logged on to read your threads about the ups & downs with Kitty. Today I am in disbelief to see the candle. Just shocked! I always prayed she would get better & she would regain strength & her appetite. This truly breaks my heart. My eyes are filled with tears right now. It's hard for me to type.
    I just can't imagine the heart break you must be feeling. I know you did so much for Kitty to try to get her better. Like I said the other day she loved you for it. Don't ever forget that!

    Please know we are all grieving with you.
    May the tears turn into smiles soon when you think of Kitty!
    :YMHUG:
     
  17. Ginny & Alex

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    Kim,
    I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
     
  18. Kelly & Oscar

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    Kim, I am so sorry to read this and sorry you had to let her go. You are right, that she isn't suffering and she is running free now. Fly free dear Kitty.
     
  19. dmartini4

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    Oh Kim,
    I am truly sorry...I know there is nothing I can say to comfort you at a time like this
    Stay strong and know that she loved you dearly
    and knew how much you loved her
    :YMHUG:

    Fly free Miss Kitty
     
  20. Marcy & Klinger (GA)

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    (((Kim))))
    I am so sorry that you had to let Cool Kitty go. My heart is breaking for you. Like everyone else I had hoped that she would rally once again for you. I've enjoyed listening to your stories of Kitty enjoying herself on the porch watching birds and ruling over the house. Thank you for sharing Cool Kitty with us. We will all miss her.
    Fly free Cool Kitty and land ever so softly at the bridge. wings_cat

    Deepest sympathies,
    Marcy
     
  21. Rob & Harley (GA)

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    ((((((Kim))))))

    Your love for Ms. Cool Kitty shown through every single day. Especially today when you gave her the greatest gift of love we can give them, you took her pain away and made it your own.

    My heart is breaking for you, many tears are flowing.

    You and Kitty danced a good dance. You gave her a wonderful life. I will always picture her basking on the sun porch watching the birds.

    Fly free Ms. Cool Kitty wings_cat land softly at the bridge. Harley will show you around.
     
  22. RobbiesMom

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    oh, Kim... That's it, what Robin said - I always look for the right phrase - you took her pain away and made it your own... you gave her the ultimate gift of love. I am so sorry... but happy that Cool Kitty is flying free from all pain and worries.
     
  23. Dragonfly229

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    Kim, I echo what everyone else has said. I was so sorry to read this, I had hoped there was something they would find. I'm glad she was a little better and enjoying life at the end. Hugs to you - {{{{{Kim}}}}}
     
  24. Dear Kim,
    My broken heart can't be anywhere close to how broken yours must feel. I am so sorry for your loss, and I think all of us can say that Miss Cool Kitty took a piece of hearts with her today. I'm blessed to have very happy memories of Kitty, as I have come to "know" her, through you, here. Through you, she was able to make us smile every time we read about her. From you I learned all about fun things like "nuviles" and the importance of "keeping a Spread Sheet up-to-date"! :smile:

    I almost feel as if I've met her. I looked back to see how long I've been hanging out in PZI....It was last July, and the very first time I posted here was when I answered a question you had posted about food for Kitty. The thing I am most grateful to Kitty for is that through her, I've met you in this wonderful place. Your daily reports always bring a smile to our faces, and the way you have always stayed "upbeat", no matter how big or how many problems you were dealing with. To me, you and Kitty have been the "spirit" of this room since the day I walked in. If not for Kitty, that wouldn't be so.

    Thank you, Kitty.

    Kim, If I could just drive up the road and give you a big hug, I'd do so. I hope you can grieve as you must, and know that we would all take some of that pain you are going through and put it on ourselves - like you did for Kitty today - if that were possible. And when you can, come back and make us smile, and we'll try to do the same for you.
    Kitty isn't gone, Kim. You might not see her every day, because now she will only visit you at night, in your dreams, and she'll bring you peace.

    Huge Hugs from SC,
    Carl, Bob and Mullet
     
  25. Doug N Libby

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    Dear friend - When I read your post earlier, I was so overcome with grief that I could not find a single word to say. You have been such a wonderful mom to Kitty, fought for her and loved her to the end. She knew how much she was loved and was fortunate to have you. I know the days ahead will be filled with emotion, but hope you can take comfort in memories of your time with Kitty and in knowing she is out of pain.

    I'm so very sorry...Hugs and Prayers -
     
  26. Angela&Henry

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    Kim, my heart is broken for you.
    You gave dear Kitty the most unselfish gift of love anyone could every give, no more suffering.
    I'm sure her spirit is watching right now and saying Mom I miss you so but thank you for not letting me suffer, and I love you so; we are never far apart and won't be forever.
    Fly high and free Cool sweet Kitty til you see your mom again. wings_cat :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
     
  27. arozeboom

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    Oh Kim...I'm so, so sorry.
     
  28. Venita

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    (((((Kim))))) May you always feel Kitty's love. She always will feel yours. Godspeed and Angelwings, Miss Kitty. wings_cat
     
  29. Deb & Spot

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    Kim, I didn't know you nor Kitty, but I justed wanted to let you know that I'm so very sorry. Fly free kitty
     
  30. doombuggy

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    Kim I am so sorry that you have lost your Kitty. I am glad that Chewy is there to give you comfort.
    :YMHUG:
     
  31. Michelle and Mannie (GA)

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    I am so sorry for your loss. Fly free Kitty wings_cat
     
  32. Karen & Pearl

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    I completely understand and I think it is the kindest thing and the hardest thing and so sucky but I know for me with Pearl, it was the best decision. (((((((((hugs))))))))))
     
  33. tuckers mom

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    (((Kim))) I am so sorry. Releasing Kitty from her pain is the hardest part of loving. I hope very soon you can feel her presence and know that she is still with you and sending you so much love and warmth each day.
     
  34. donnahc

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    Oh Kim, my heart is broken with this news too. I have been out of town again for work and I am just seeing this Wednesday morning.
    Know in your heart you did everything possible, above and beyond for Kitty. Your difficult decision was the most loving thing you could do. Try to remember all the good things. The funny Kitty things she did, good times you enjoyed together.
    I know her spirit will be with you always.

    Fly free sweet dear Kitty. wings_cat
    Love and hugs and healing coming your way. (((((Kim)))))
     
  35. jt and trouble (GA)

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    Kim I can so relate with your decision as I went through the same. It hurts so much but quality of live isnt forcing meds constantly. My heart goes out to you. Kitty is in a better place although we think that place is by our side...My sincere condolences.
    Fly free sweet Kitty land ever so softly till you meet again.
    jeanne
     
  36. Michele and Peeps

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  37. Squeaky and KT (GA)

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    5/23.....
    Kim,
    No Kitty didn't leave the Alley....she's right there riding your shoulder and waiting for your pain to lessen enough for you to recognize her. She's not gone, you just have to hug her differently....

    Hugs to the rest of my extra sweet family....extra hug for extra sweet Sir Chewy and extra sweet Miss Sally.
     
  38. Nancey

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    Kim,

    I just started reading about Cool Kitty and the troubles she was having and how much you where trying to make her life as pain free and enjoyable as possible. Seeing this note brought tears to my eyes and a sad feeling to my heart as I have been were you are now. Eight years later I still cry for my Gizmo as she was "Moma's baby girl" and when I lost her I lost a piece of myself, I think we all do. I know it was a hard decision to let her go but you did what was the best for her just as you always have. Always remember they are never truly gone for the love you shared never dies, it stays within your heart and your memories. She will always be with you, watching over you just as you did for her.

    May Miss Cool Kitty's spirit fly free until you see you meet again. wings_cat
     
  39. Ele & Blackie (GA)

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    I am so sorry for your loss of Cool Kitty. I'm sure she knew how much you love her. I hope in time your loving memories will ease your pain.

    Fly Free Cool Kitty, and land softly. wings_cat
     
  40. kse

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    Good Morning,

    Today seems so surreal. I thought I was prepared for the loss of my dear Kitty, but it is very hard. There is a hole in my heart.

    Thank All of you for your thoughts and kind words. It does help, to know that there are people that understand the depth of the loss.

    I am not leaving PZI-- I know that I no longer have an insulin dependent diabetic cat (anti jinx!), But I am staying. Something about this place seems like I belong. So, I might take a leave of absence, but if you will have me-- I want to stay. Maybe, I can help others, the same way that you helped Kitty and Me.

    I have cried a river of tears in the last 24 hours, but I know that Kitty is in a better place. My tears are not for guilt or second thoughts, but for the loss in my everyday life. I am having her cremated, and now am anxious to have her ashes returned to me-- so she can be home again, with all of us --- in the Alley.

    Thanks for allowing me to share my grief with you.....it helps.

    Kim
     
  41. Grayson & Lu

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    Kim - I know you're surrounded by friends and family, but I still hate not being able to be there for you right now. The other day, when she laid in the sun on the pine straw, she knew her time was short... but she enjoyed every little thing until that time came. She would expect you to grieve, but then she would likewise expect you to celebrate the life you shared together.

    Lyresa said it very well - and I LOVE this: Kitty didn't leave the Alley....she's right there riding your shoulder and waiting for your pain to lessen enough for you to recognize her. She's not gone, you just have to hug her differently....

    Know that the others are missing her too, and you can all comfort each other, knowing that she is no longer feeling any sort of pain. Hugs to you all -

    Lu-Ann
     
  42. Sue and Oliver (GA)

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    I just hope each day is a little easier, Kim. It will take a while to stop looking for her as you go about your day. But someday soon, you will find yourself smiling when you remember her and you'll know she lives on, always, in your memories.

    You better not leave! This is your family and we need you! Take a while as you need to, but come back. You have to help me nag about spreadsheets, and who would be our TID expert.

    Thinking of you.
     
  43. Squeaky and KT (GA)

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    Re: Kitty 5/22 --She is NOT Gone....She's on your Shoulder!

    Kim,
    I'm not technically a member of the PZI family but I like to think I'm at least a step-child....so...You'd BETTER not go anywhere, I need you!

    Lots of extra hugs, thoughts and prayers as you move thru your day and keep finding the holes. We all wish we could be there to cry with you.

    Another big hug....
     
  44. Emmy & Dude

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    Every time one of our precious kitties leaves us, the entire Board hurts.

    My heart goes out to you in your sadness - but your decision to take away Cool Kitty's pain and relieve her of the constant meds set her free - and it shows your love for her.

    Sending many comforting prayers your way - I'm so sorry you had to say goodbye.

    Emmy & Dude ( & Mittsi too)
     
  45. sophie

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    Dear Kim, you showed Miss Kitty tenderness and love all of her life. No kitty could ask for more. May the sunny sweetness of your memories settle in your heart soon. Sophie (and Pudge)
     
  46. BJM

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    {{hugs}}

    May your good memories help lighten grief.
     
  47. hollyall

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    Oh Kim! I am so very sorry to hear about your loss of sweet Miss Kitty. Life is busy and I don't check-in as much on the forum, but I feel such gratitude for all the help I received. You were a big part of that help and experience as we shared the up's and down's. You and Miss Kitty are in my thoughts and prayers. May you find peace in the wonderful memories of the time you shared together. You seriously are one amazing mama to all your fur babies! Lots of love ~Holly
     
  48. Lydia & Sid & Jake(GA)

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    Kim,

    I am so sorry to hear about Kitty. My heart is broken for you. You did everything possible and showered her with so much love. I hope happy memories of her heal the hole in your heart.


    Lydia & Sid
     
  49. calliecat an marty

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    (((((((((((((((((( Kim ))))))))))))))) I am so so sorry for your loss :YMHUG: my heart is broke reading this , you have always been an inspiration to me and the way you take things as they come to you and deal with them and always stay positive !! I 've said more than once that I wish I was more like you ! my arms are wrapped around you right now and holding you tight, you have helped so many people on FDMB and kitties we all love you very much and are here for YOU if you need us




    fly free cool Kitty wings_cat
     
  50. judy and squamee(GA)

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    Oh Kim, so very sorry to hear this news. I know the hugh black hole it leaves in your heart and in your life, but the love you shared is still with you, and she was lucky to be with someone who had the strength to take care of her so well and to be able to let her go. This board is also lucky to be able to benefit from your strength, wisdom and wit. All my best, Judy
     
  51. Holly and Josie

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    I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of Kitty. You took such wonderful care of her, remaining so positive despite all of your struggles. As others have said, you are an inspiration to all of us. Kitty was so fortunate to have had someone like you taking care of her. I will be praying for you!
     
  52. owlgal

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    Kim,

    So sorry for your loss. I have been away on vacation and just got home late last night. Just read the post and my heart goes out to you!!! Letting go is the hardest thing! I know it was hard for you. You are a GREAT mommy! Praying for you during this greif.

    lori
     
  53. Joanna & Bix (GA)

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    Oh dear, I haven't been here in forever, and didn't know she was ill. I am so sorry to read this. And thank you Kim for your post on my thread.... I pictured Cool Kitty running around happy & playing as you typed. :)

    Fly free Kitty, the Coolest kitty ever! rb_icon
     
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