My Doodle is gone

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  1. Michelle and Doodle

    Michelle and Doodle Member

    Dec 28, 2009

    This is the most difficult post I have ever made. The final condo...
    My Doodle is gone.

    We helped him pass on Sunday. My vet came in especially for us - so it was quiet and peaceful in the office. He was so weak that morning that he could barely stand... and we knew it was time when he literally crawled to the litterbox.
    He had been at the vet the day before and 3 days out of 5 before that. We fought so hard... He lost his sight on Friday night but it had been coming for days. He seemed to gain some strength in the car and he sat up to feel the sun on his face and snuggle me a bit. I waivered at that point... and wondered how I'd ever feel okay about this - even though I knew he had no chance at a true recovery. But when we got in the room he was so calm... Brian and I took turns holding him and he seemed to look straight at us. Then when I sat him on the table he just layed down...arms outstretched... and surrendered. He had nothing left in him. He was gone before the injection was even finished.

    I wrote a tribute to him last night:
    I hope it gives at least a tiny glimpse of how extraordinary he was.

    Thank you all for your support and kindness and a special thank you to Jojo - who was with us every step of the way -- I am eternally grateful.

    It was almost 7 years ago that I saw a flash of white, streak through my backyard – running from the neighborhood tom – and screaming like a little girl. :)

    We had just moved into our house, and our backyard joins a forested swampy area, so I wasn't really sure of what I had seen. I had never seen an all white cat before – or at least never paid attention if I had. I was convinced that there was something rare and wonderful back there.
    And there was...

    I didn't even really like animals at the time - they were dirty...and stinky... and they, eeww of all eewwws, licked themselves.
    Still, I watched for him everyday. And one day, there he was, at my back door.
    I was completely taken.
    After a few visits, I fed him some cheese nips by tossing them out the back door and he ate so many that he threw up.
    That's when I knew I loved him.
    I wasn't disgusted by watching him throw up – but instead, was worried that I had made him sick.

    My neighbors told me he had been running around the neighborhood for years, apparently abandoned...that he was very sweet... but that he wouldn't come too close.
    One cold evening I opened my door for him. He came inside, crawled up on my chest, and slept for 12hours.
    He never left again... until Sunday.

    Doodle has taught me many things throughout these years. He has taught me that the superficial things in life are unimportant. That there is value in silence... and in solitude... that love isn't about “things” and perhaps most importantly, he has taught me that I am capable of commitment.

    I had always been the type of person that if things got tough, or unpleasant... I would just walk away...
    It's why I've been married 3 times, and why even though I wanted a child, I always questioned my ability to be a good mother.
    But when Doodle was diagnosed with diabetes in 2007, I decided that I was going to commit. I promised him I would do what needed to be done – no matter what.

    I had no idea at the time that he would be so difficult to regulate... that I was committing to 3 or 4 shots a day, to multiple tests and hours of lost sleep... But he was always such a good patient, and his quiet strength and ability to find joy in a simple ray of sunshine was inspiring.

    Early last year when he was diagnosed with hyperaldosteronism and kidney disease, I knew he didn't have a lot of time left. And when he started having breathing issues and was diagnosed with heart disease a few months later I thought he would be gone within a matter of days. But despite the risks, the cost, and the odds, we took him to University of Florida to see if they could help him. 2 surgeries, (an overdose of insulin,) a blood transfusion and a week later, he came home with a feeding tube and a diagnoses of hepatic lipidosis and cryptococcosis. - a fungal infection that was the cause of his breathing issues and some of the damage to his heart.

    He went from 9lbs to 6lbs and he struggled to recover. He worked soo hard... and slowly over the months he regained some of his strength, seeming to have an even greater interest in affection. He loved being in our laps or snuggled up on our chest.
    I was starting to feel comfortable in my optimism... But his kidney function deteriorated dramatically in the last few weeks of his life and his blood pressure and and potassium level became uncontrollable.
    He surrendered peacefully in his last few moments – with no less grace than I would ever have expected...but more than I could have imagined, had I not seen it for myself.

    He was blind in the end, but he never lost sight of me... he never stopped comforting me. And he will never stop making me a better person. He reminded me every day how to recognize and appreciate a good moment in the midst of all the bad ones - how to smile through the tears.
    He will forever have my love and my gratitude.

    He couldn't save the world... but to the one he saved... he meant the world.

    :!: ... directlink :!:

    I wanted this video to show the fullness of Doodle's life with us – from the beginning until the final moments before he left us.
    It shows both our happy and sad moments and hopefully it shows the love we shared.
  2. Randi & Max (GA)

    Randi & Max (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    ((((((((((((((Michelle)))))))))))) (((((((((Brian)))))) (((((((Brielle)))))))

    Tears and love and support.

    Fly free sweet and wonderful Doodle. A legend and hero among us.
    We are honoured that you graced our lives and you will live in our
    hearts forever.

    wings_cat Doodle, lights the sky
  3. Michelle and Doodle

    Michelle and Doodle Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    I tried to link to a video at the end but I'm having trouble getting it right.
    I think the link works - but you have a to click a few times to get to it.
    I'm sorry about that.
  4. Mike&Buddy

    Mike&Buddy Well-Known Member

    Jan 23, 2011
    My regards to the passing of Doodle.

    Prayers and hugs to you. Doodle is now with all of our furkids that have moved on. Till our time comes to make a visit they all will be happy together.

    Please do not believe this is your last post, at least in regards to the purpose. Please post in the general chat area when you feel up to it. You are still a member of this FDBM family!
  5. Ella & Rusty & Stu(GA)

    Ella & Rusty & Stu(GA) Well-Known Member

    Jan 11, 2010
    Dear Michelle,
    I am so sorry to read about Doodle's passing. He was a beautiful, brave boy and he gave you many wonderful years. He knew it was his time to go, but he will always be with you, in your heart and in your memories. Now he is at the Bridge, healthy and whole again, and sending his love and his thanks to you. All of our GAs are welcoming him and there is joy at the Bridge because they all know how much he was loved.
    Fly free, sweet Doodle, on your beautiful new wings. wings_cat

    In deepest sympathy,
    Ella & Rusty and Stu (GA)

    p.s. I couldn't get your video link at first, but tried again and was successful. This is such a lovely tribute to Doodle. Thank you.
  6. Rocket & his Mom

    Rocket & his Mom Well-Known Member

    Oct 31, 2010
    oh no Michelle.....(((((hugs)))))
    i'm so sorry for your loss of Doodle....*tears*
    your tribute to him is beautiful....and so another legend at LL is gone!
    he will forever be with you in spirit!
    Fly Free Doodle wings_cat
  7. CD and BigMac

    CD and BigMac Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Beautiful tribute... breathtaking.

    And the video is lovely and heart-wrenching. (((((((((Michelle, Brian, Brielle)))))))))
  8. Barb and Tori

    Barb and Tori Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Oh Michelle I am so very very sorry. Words totally escape me right now. I know how much you love your little boy and I know how much he loves you. Please don't ever think for a second that that love will not last forever. It will. Also please don't ever think that your didn't do everything you could for him. You did and more. I know how much you are hurting right now and how lost you must feel. Just hang on tight to the good memories of the love that you and Doodle share. That will get you through.

    I know that there must have been one heck of a feast at the the Bridge on Sunday catered by our Master Chef Stu. I know that my Tori was there to welcome Doodle. She always had an eye for the handsome lads like your boy.

    Fly high and proud sweet Doodle with your beautiful golden wings. You have truly earned them. Please send your Mama a sign real soon that you are doing fine at the Bridge. She needs to hear from you.

    Many hugs to you Michelle, your hubby and your darling little girl.
  9. Joan and Madison

    Joan and Madison Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((Michelle, Brian & Brielle))) I just don't have the words to tell you how sad I am for your loss. Doodle was such an amazing guy. You were obviously meant to find each other.
  10. Carol & Yoshi

    Carol & Yoshi Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Such a sweet and tender tribute to Doodle and so eloquent. It has moved me to tears. So much love, insightful learning and all because of a small, furry white creature. I'm so so sorry for your loss.
  11. Noreen&DC&Frisky

    Noreen&DC&Frisky Well-Known Member

    Jun 2, 2010
    I am so sorry for your loss.
    What a beautiful tribute.
    Fly free sweet Doodle.
  12. Ann & Tess GA

    Ann & Tess GA Well-Known Member

    Jan 7, 2010
    ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Michelle & Brian)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that Doodle is gone! He was such a sweetheart and so brave! he has not left you, he will always be there watching over your family from the Bridge!
  13. Karrie and Maverick

    Karrie and Maverick Well-Known Member

    Oct 22, 2010
    (((((((((((((((Michelle)))))))))))))) I am so sorry to hear this. My heart is breaking for you too. If only love was enough Maverick and Doodle would have lived forever. I hate that others are feeling this sadness that only time can mend.

    I believe every one of our babies found us for a reason and were meant to be ours. Doodle knew unconditional love and you grew with him. You and Doodle are an inspiration to many.
  14. Jason & Belle (GA)

    Jason & Belle (GA) Member

    Mar 29, 2010

    Your words about him were beautiful and the video had me in tears. You have so many wonderful pictures of him.

    I am so sorry that you had to say goodbye. As someone that lost a "soulmate" kitty after fighting so hard for time, I understand some of what you must be feeling. There are no words to make things better, but for me, it was thinking about the stars that had to align for us to be together, and the way it made each of our lives so much better that brought some peace. Belle was found under a porch, covered in motor oil at a few weeks old, and through a million different unlikely events, found her way to me. The way you and Doodle came together is even more amazing. You had just moved, and he showed up! The course of your life brought you to that house with him there! The chances of that happening are too inconceivable to wrap your head around. You were meant to be, and as I've said to others. he was going to be born and live his life with or without you, so it's so amazing that you found him and were able to give him more love and care than he could have ever imagined. If you had never moved into that house, and Doodle hadn't been drawn to you, you both would have missed out on a relationship of a lifetime.

    Watching your video, it also seems like Doodle left a greater legacy. You have other cats and dogs! Before Doodle you weren't an animal person. Doodle opened your heart and not only made a difference in your life, but in every cat and dog you care for moving forward. Belle did that for me, and I have a house full of love with 8 rescued cats because Belle taught me the value of love and compassion. What a wonderful legacy!

    I'm a grown man, but I'm tearing up as i write this. I understand how you feel. I miss Belle so much. It's awful, it sucks, it's unfair, but to not feel this pain, we'd have to close our hearts and homes to them. As difficult as this all is, I'd do it over a million times because life is so much better because they were in it.

  15. Nicole & Baby

    Nicole & Baby Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    I am so sorry to hear of Doodle's passing & the immense pain you are going through.
    I was literally moved to tears at the unconditional love & absolute kindness illustrated through the best choice of words in your condo & video this morning. You both were blessed to have each other & you were his angel here on Earth o:)
    Finding words to comfort you is impossible, I am thinking & praying for you & sending a zillion virtual hugs :YMHUG:

    (((Doodle))) wings_cat
  16. Sherry & Squirt (GA)

    Sherry & Squirt (GA) Member

    Jan 4, 2010
    I am so very sorry for your free Doodle ..

    What a wonderful tribute to a very special kitty...
  17. Jen & Squeak

    Jen & Squeak Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    I wasn't ready to read this earlier, but what a touching tribute to a wonderful boy...

    Fly Free Doodle, you will be missed.

    Hugs to you Michelle and your DH and little one.
  18. Iorwen & Tray

    Iorwen & Tray Well-Known Member

    Apr 25, 2010
    oh Michelle, my heart breaks for you. Doodle was such a beautiful boy. What a lovely tribute you wrote.
    Doodle was loved and gave love in return, he's at peace and may your grieving heart find some as well.

    Fly free Doodle
  19. Jan and Buddy

    Jan and Buddy Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Your tribute was very beautiful. He was such a sweet boy!! My heart breaks for you.
    Jan and Buddy
  20. tuckers mom

    tuckers mom Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((Michelle))) Every time I thought of Doodle over the years I thought of Tucker(GA). Doodle had the same spirit as my little man. Doodle was a life changing kitty, one who's soul will be forever intertwined with yours. He chose you as his family, he chose you as his mom and he chose purrfectly. The love and devotion that you had for him and he to you and your family was and always will be beautiful.

    In time memories fade, but the love and true beauty that is Doodle will never disappear. He will send you signs, there will be smiles when you think of him, today though, the pain is great and it's all consuming. For as much as it hurts, the honor of having been able to love Doodle and have him as your little man, I hope that can bring you some comfort. Much much love to you and to your family. Fly free sweet (((Doodle))).
  21. Michelle and Mannie (GA)

    Michelle and Mannie (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Michelle - I am so sorry to read about Doodles passing. He was such a brave kitty, fought such a valiant battle. What a beautiful soul he had.

    Your tribute is beautiful as well - it took my breathe away, with tears of sadness, tears of joy. You guys were meant for each other - what a team you made.

    I hope you can find comfort in the thousand of memories you have - they will never leave you. The spirit never leaves us. I know he is happy and whole and pain free now , and thanks you forever for all you have done for him.

    Fly free little one you will be missed, and never forgotten. rb_icon
  22. PeterDevonMocha

    PeterDevonMocha Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Oh how my heart breaks for you all ... I don't have any words to describe how sorry I am for your loss .. Fly Free Doodle ..
  23. Lisa and Merlyn (GA)

    Lisa and Merlyn (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009

    Many tears falling here. You both fought long and hard. I am so sorry he had to cross. Doodle is flying free now, whole and healthy over the Rainbow Bridge. rb_icon
  24. jt and trouble (GA)

    jt and trouble (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Dearest Michelle I'm so sorry for this great loss. I fell head over heels in love with that little face a long time ago and the first time I read you called him Doodle Bug floored me because thats what I had called him everytime I sw that sweet little face on the screen.

    I dont know how you do it cause I just lost mine not too long ago but we carry on just like our babies did.

    You gave each other the best darn life anyone could ask for a life of love.

    Fly free little Doodle Bug you've earned those beautiful wings. Land ever so softly till you meet again.

  25. Sherry & Zoe (GA)

    Sherry & Zoe (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 29, 2009
    ((((Michelle)))) There are no many tears here.

    What you wrote for Doodle is an absolute testament to your love for him and his for you. These special kitties that we have been blessed are given to us for a reason; to teach us something about ourselves. Our lives are enriched because of these furbabies.

    Doodlebug will be missed by many - fly free Doodlebug - you will never be forgotten.
  26. Sienne and Gabby (GA)

    Sienne and Gabby (GA) Senior Member Moderator

    Dec 28, 2009
    If I wasn't at work I'd be sobbing. Instead, tears are quietly rolling down my face. What a beautiful tribute to an extraordinary soulmate. Doodle will never be forgotten -- certainly not by you and not by many of us who had the good fortune to know him through you. You were both heroic in your efforts to stay together. I'm just so sorry that Doodle knew it was his time to rest and to stop fighting. I suspect if you asked him to, he would have continued to fight. Instead, you made the hard but compassionate decision. He will be waiting for you at the Bridge and he will be the strong and healthy and happy boy you best remember.

    Fly free Doodlebug and land softly. Lantus Land is a little diminished without you. Give my Georgie a headbutt for me and he'll return some snuggles.
  27. mybuddybinks

    mybuddybinks Well-Known Member

    Aug 11, 2010
    Michelle...I was shocked and deeply saddened to see this on facebook today.
    I want you to know that i work in the grief counseling field,
    and you have created what I think is the most breathtaking tribute I have ever seen.

    Your words and pictures bring his beautiful spirit alive for those of us who did not have the honor of meeting him in person.

    Between you, you have created a legacy for others to aspire to.

    I grieve for your heartache while i stand in awe of your eloquence, strength, and generosity in sharing the depth of your love with us.

    Soar free, Sweet Doodlebug...and land softly...

    all 4 of us lighting candles in honor of your soulmate...

    celi, binks, smudge & annie

  28. pjstroop

    pjstroop Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((Michelle, Brian, & Brielle)))

    As I sit here in tears after reading Doodles story and watching his video - I am so very saddened as I know how much he will truly be missed by all of you. Doodle was a legend in Lantus Land and paved the way for many a newcomer! He had an amazing life.. and I laughed and cried as I read about his journey ... He was sooo blessed to have found you and your family to love and care for him.. and no doubt his love was immense for all of you.

    Many prayers for all of you!

    Fly free handsome dood wings_cat
  29. Linda and Bear Man

    Linda and Bear Man Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((Michelle) What a beautiful story, and equally beautiful photos of Doodle and his family. I thought that he became even more beautiful toward the end, because you could see his spirit, undamaged, shining through. I am filled with sadness for your family's loss, especially for Brielle, who lost the big brother she has known all of her life, but I am also filled with inspiration at how close your bond was and how you both overcame so many difficulties. Your story is a love story. The hero dies at the end, but the princess is saved and all of the people whose lives they touched go on to remember the brave fighter and honor his memory forever. I know that I will never forget him.
  30. Hope + (((Baby)))GA

    Hope + (((Baby)))GA Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009

    Michelle, my deepest and most heartfelt sympathy on the passing of your beloved Doodle. What a wonderful tribute you wrote and your video.....such beautiful pictures.....sitting here with tears rolling down my face trying to write to you. What a loving "dance" you two shared and I'm with Jason....we'd do it all again because of the life we shared with them. May all your beautiful memories help you through the "moments" and always.....remember the love. My heart goes out to you and all who knew and loved Doodle. Never enough years given but so precious the ones we had.
  31. sharon and sparky

    sharon and sparky Member

    Dec 29, 2009
    I am so sorry for you losing Doodle. He will always be forever loved and forever remembered. Fly Free Doodle>>>>>>>>>>>> rb_icon <<<<<<
    Land softly~~~~~~~
  32. Lisa and Do Lou (GA)

    Lisa and Do Lou (GA) Well-Known Member

    Jan 10, 2010

    Your tribute was so wonderful to Doodle and it was so moving I could hardly watch it thru the tears

    fly Free Doodle rb_icon wings_cat wings_cat wings_cat wings_cat
  33. Jill & Alex (GA)

    Jill & Alex (GA) Senior Member Moderator

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((((Michelle, Brian, and Brielle)))))
    I've started writing... deleted... and written again at least 5 times now. Words just seem so inadequate at a time like this.
    Suffice to say, the love you shared and in turn shared with us will never, ever be forgotten.
    My heart is breaking for your family.

    wings_cat Fly free dear sweet Doodlebug...
  34. Marje and Gracie

    Marje and Gracie Senior Member Moderator

    May 30, 2010
    (((Michelle and Brian))): I'm not sure I have any more eloquent words than have already been posted here today. But your video was an incredible tribute to a sweet and brave soul, Doodle, who obviously is so deeply loved and who obviously loves you both back. What a beautiful, soulful creature your Doodle is....and I do speak in the present because he is still with you. It's only been a year since we lost our very, very much loved Max ("Doodlebug") and I know he is with me still. He fought because you knew he was worth fighting for and you gave him every chance and then when he was tired, you gave him the ultimate set him free. Our very deepest sympathy for your pain.

    Gentle journey sweet Doodle. We will light a candle for you.
  35. Laurie and Mr Tinkles

    Laurie and Mr Tinkles Well-Known Member

    May 9, 2010
    Michelle, your post and the video are wonderful tributes to Doodle, many tears here both reading and watching. My deepest condolences to you and your family, it's obvious that there was a lot of love shared.

    Fly free sweet Doodle. wings_cat
  36. jan and Hep and sara (GA)

    jan and Hep and sara (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009

    That was an absolutely beautiful tribute and video of your boy Doodle! It was in the cards that you found each other and you gave him the best life ever. You were a good mom and did everything to make him happy, content and comfortable. I know that you will miss him terribly. Nothing will ever fill his void, but know you are not alone. He will always be a part of you.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    Fly Free Sweet Boy Doodle


    jan and sara
  37. Ann & Maggie11 (GA)

    Ann & Maggie11 (GA) Well-Known Member

    Jan 16, 2010
    I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Doodle. The Tribute is beautiful. I've not been able to load the video, but I'm going to keep trying. I love the story of how you found each other. It sounds like Doodle was forever grateful for finding you and his forever home. My heart and prayers go out to you. Hugs.
  38. Lauren&Tommy (GA)

    Lauren&Tommy (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 7, 2010
    This is Sparky "Papa Bean".

    I just wanted to say how saddened both Squirrel and I are about the loss of your Doodle. We have had more cries over the last week than we really care too and I felt compelled to post.

    I too was someone who was somewhat oblivious to the love of animals until I met an married Squirrel. Every day I am grateful to her for helping to show me that unconditional love does exist. It is a tough and heart wrenching experience that we all share when we take on the responsibility of caring for our little critters. Even knowing that someday the heartbreak is inevitable, I wouldn't give up the years of loving and caring for them for anything.

    Hold tight to your other critters and I pray you find peace and comfort through them during this unbearable and rough time. Bask in the light of the wonderful memories of Doodle and he'll be waiting for you there. Know that the FDMB family are her for you too.
  39. Dyana

    Dyana Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009

    My breath is kind of light. It's a little hard to breath. A part of me is crying. A part of me is breaking.

    I love your tribute. I loved watching the video (great job!). Mostly, I think, I love how much you love Doodle.

    Peace. Fly Free Wonderful Doodle
    Many tears. Many big tears.
    Another big hole in LantusLand ... Fly Free Beautiful Kitty
  40. Pat+Raja+Shadow (GA)

    Pat+Raja+Shadow (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    I am so terribly sorry for your loss of Doodle..... Your post was touching and the pictures were wonderful. What lovely tribute to Doodle. May your wonderful memories of him and what he has taught you give you strength through these sad days. You two have been through so much together....bless you for all that you did to help him.....

    Fly Free Sweet Doodle...until we meet again.... wings_cat
  41. Cheryl & Whiskers (GA)

    Cheryl & Whiskers (GA) Member

    Sep 12, 2010
    Wow, I am at work and after reading your story and viewing the video I just
    could not hold back the tears. I went to the restroom to break down. The story
    of yourself and Doodle is truely inspiring, and the photos of Doodle and you black
    Kitty and dog are stunning. I am so sorry for you loss.
    ********fly free sweet Doodle********* Miss Witty is waiting for you at the bridge.

    Cheryl & Miss Witty (GA)
  42. Nina and KB

    Nina and KB Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    ((( Michelle, Brian, and Brielle )))

    We've shared so many times with you and Doodle. Your tribute was very moving, and very fitting for such a special guy. I lit a candle for him when I heard he had become an angel. He will live on in our hearts as well as yours.
  43. Barbara and tuffy

    Barbara and tuffy Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((((Michelle, Brian, and Brielle))))) What can anyone say to ease your grief. Your tribute and video were wonderful. He is now free of pain and sickness, enjoying the meadows, butterflies, frogs and all the other critters.

    Doodle, fly free and land softly special boy. wings_cat
  44. Sonia & Tom (GA)

    Sonia & Tom (GA) Well-Known Member

    Jan 2, 2010
    Oh Michelle. I am so incredibly sad to read this.
    I love Doodlebug and will miss him. Beautiful tribute.
    Hugs to all of you.
  45. Rocket & his Mom

    Rocket & his Mom Well-Known Member

    Oct 31, 2010
    i couldn't get the video the first time had to wait for DH to come home and help me out...after a few tries i managed to watch...i must is captured on the video Doodle's personality from what you describe on the tribute....i can't stop two were for sure meant to find one another....and he will wait for you until the two shall meet again.....he was very handsome indeed!
  46. Georgia and Simon (GA)

    Georgia and Simon (GA) Well-Known Member

    Nov 20, 2010
    Michelle, many tears were shed while I watched your beautiful tribute to Doodle. What a beautiful kitty -- I can tell what a powerful connection Doodle had to you. Doodle is now free from all pain.

    Peace and prayers to you.
  47. bev5477

    bev5477 Well-Known Member

    Mar 30, 2011
    Michelle, I don't know you but at times like this, it isn't needed. Your Doodle misses you too and will wait for you at the bridge. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.
  48. Frip&Grip

    Frip&Grip Member

    Jun 15, 2010
    (((Michelle))) I am so sorry for your loss of Doodle… Such a nice video and tribute.. You gave him the most wonderful life.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. :YMHUG:

    Fly Free Sweet Doodle o:)
  49. Mowgli and Keri

    Mowgli and Keri Member

    Oct 28, 2010
    What a wonderful tribute! ~wiping tear~I am sorry to hear of the passing of your sweet doodle!
    Many GA LL friends will surely have been there to greet...
  50. Roni and Moonie

    Roni and Moonie Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    ((((((MICHELLE & FAMILY))))))) I am sobbing reading this about your dearest sweet Doodle Bug..
    I have been here long enough to have gone through a lot of your trials & tribulations with Doodle..
    He is our beautiful white green-eyed boy who brightened many days for all of us, and made lantus land happier to be in..The video was so beautiful and look at what a very happy boy he was!! Joy in every picture-
    You all fought a brave battle & overcame many obstacles.
    I remembered what I saw in some airport-You may not be a person to the whole world, but you are the whole world to one person/or cat.
    You were the whole world to Doodle bug, his beautiful family, and you meant so much to us here..
    Doodle will always live in the heart of lantus land & with those of us who loved him..
    I cant imagine your pain, yet I feel it right now.--I will never forget you Doddle & Michelle..
    My heart is broken for your loss-- Fly Free Doodle, we love you! wings_cat
  51. Kathy and Kitty

    Kathy and Kitty Well-Known Member

    Dec 29, 2009
    Oh no, I am so incredibly sorry to see this. Michelle, my heart goes out to you and Brian.

    I can see that it was his time, and it is a relief for him to be free of pain. But I know how deep the hurt and loss go. What special love he brought to your life, and you to his. I hope that brings you comfort.

    Fly free, Doodle. Lighting a candle to light your arrival at the Bridge.
  52. MJ+Donovan

    MJ+Donovan Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    I watched the video showing the beautiful photos of this spectacular boy, and am sitting here both crying and smiling. How can you not look at Doodle and smile? That sweet face! How blessed you were to have him, and how blessed he was that you cared for him so much.

    Love and prayers to you.

  53. Ruth & Beethoven (GA)

    Ruth & Beethoven (GA) Member

    Dec 29, 2009
    Michelle, I am so so sad to read this. I knew Doodle was near the end, but the end always comes too soon. We will miss sweet Doodle. When I learned he was gone, I went to get Beethoven, picked him up and gave him the biggest hug.

  54. HollyandSpader(GA)

    HollyandSpader(GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    I am so sorry. I am at a loss for words.

    That is an amazing tribute.

    There is never enough time.
  55. Patti and Merlin

    Patti and Merlin Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Oh MIchelle,
    I've always quietly followed you and Doodle's story and now I share your tears. Your video of your lives together is both precious and priceless. Such a wonderful, special boy - Doodle - and such a loving, caring, giving mom - You! Please take care of yourself - it's such a painful time now but you have a most special angel watching over you now.
    With the warmest of hugs
    Patti and always in my heart - Merlin
  56. Cheryl and Winnie

    Cheryl and Winnie Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    ((( Michelle ))))

    What an amazing tribute you created for a very amazing kitty. I was in tears and had to wait and come back to write you.
    I remembered a post from a couple years ago..... Doodle was not having a good day and that meant you were down. Dani and Spottie posted a heartfelt response w/ a special quote that I wanted to save, so I bookmarked it. I thought it was perfect to repost it here for you now, along with the link to the whole thread. The old LL gang all rallied around you and it was also Haiku day(remember that ?) and we tried to cheer you up in our silly ways mixed in w/ more serious notes. I liked looking back at it and remembering. Even though you and Doodle weren't having the best day, the best spirit of the board came through. I want you to feel that now. We heart Doodlebug and you -- then, now, forever !

    Doodle's condo 8-1-08

    Peace dear sweet Doodlebug wings_cat

    ((( Michelle, Brian, Brielle )))

    with sympathy,
  57. Sarah and Velcro

    Sarah and Velcro Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((Michelle and Family)))

    Fly Free Sweet Doodle
  58. linda and guinness

    linda and guinness Member

    Dec 29, 2009

    I remember you and Doodle from when I was around a couple of years ago. I'm so sorry for your loss, but know that you and Doodle have been an inspiration to me and Guinness, then and now. (((((hugs)))))).
  59. meand4

    meand4 Member

    Mar 4, 2011
    Im so very sorry :(
  60. Ele & Blackie (GA)

    Ele & Blackie (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((Michelle))) I am so sorry to read this. You and Doodle fought a brave fight and you were a wonderful mom to him. I'm sure he knows how much you love him. And he will always be in your heart. I'm praying for peace and comfort for you and your family.

    Fly Free, Doodle. There are many angels at the Bridge to greet you. wings_cat
  61. arniesdad

    arniesdad Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    ((((((((((MICHELLE))))))))))) The Tribute was BEAUTIFUL and the video had me bawling my eyes out!! I am so sorry!!! Fly Free Sweet Doodle!! wings_cat
  62. M L and Cleo (GA)

    M L and Cleo (GA) Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Michelle, I'm so sorry to hear about Doodle. What a beautiful tribute you wrote for him.

    Sending prayers for comfort and peace.
  63. Donna and Flame

    Donna and Flame Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((((Michelle, Brian & Brielle)))))

    I can barely see thru the tears to type... the tears won't stop flowing. I am not here very often, but something drew me here today. It was the same the day Meowzi passed. I was drawn here and could not explain the feeling... then I saw Choy Foong's post... and today, yours... neither post I ever wanted to see.

    To me, you and Doodlebug were one of the teams that were a legend on this board. Since 2008, I've watched the two of you fight together... with your "customized plan" for "freaks"... which always made me laugh. I was always in awe of your dedication and persistence in Doodle's care... Yours was TRULY a love story... you for him and he for you. That love has always been and still is, so evident and it is that love that will never, ever die. You were meant to be together. He picked you... what a privelege to have been chosen by this beautiful soul.

    That was the most beautiful and moving tribute and video I think I have ever seen. Michelle, I know how hard that must have been for you and I am so grateful to you for sharing yourself and Doodle with all of us. My heart aches with yours at the passing of one so very dear. There are many who are grieving with you. You and Doodle leave a legacy of inspiration in this place.... a legacy that will live on. He was, and will always be, one incredibly special boy and he'll never be forgotten.

    Doodlebug, you touched so many hearts... so may lives here. Your work here is done now sweet boy, but your legacy lives on. Fly high and free with the Angels now dear one... you have earned your rest. Send your family a sign to let them know you are OK... it will help their hearts. You will be missed more than you know sweet boy.

    We think we rescue them... but in reality, it is they who rescue us.

    My heart goes out to you and your family Michelle. Prayers for comfort and healing at this most difficult time.

    Much love,
    Donna and Flamie
  64. Caryl & Sebastian & Alex (GA)

    Caryl & Sebastian & Alex (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Oh Michelle I am so very sorry. I have no words.
    Your video is just beautiful and does Doodle justice. He would be so honored.

    Fly Free Beautiful more pain wings_cat

    Hugs to you ((((Michelle)))
  65. drjsiems

    drjsiems Member

    Jan 23, 2010

    I am so very sorry for your loss.

    Judy, Jake, & Civvie Boomer
  66. WCF and Meowzi

    WCF and Meowzi Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((((Michelle, Brian and Brielle)))))

    True love stories don't end. Your connection with Doodle continues, and so shall your love story with him.

    Send signs, gentle Doodle, to ease your family's pain. Show them that love transcends the worlds.
  67. joyce-tuscany(GA)

    joyce-tuscany(GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Doodle Bug - you may be flying free with all the other GA's now but you will not be forgotten by your family on LL. (((Michelle)))- You were an awesome bean to your Doodle.
  68. sehjak (Susan & Lanky)

    sehjak (Susan & Lanky) Well-Known Member

    Mar 6, 2010
    We are so sorry & sad for you and your family. You did a wonderful tribute to this special kitty, Doodle. We know your heart is breaking. Sending hugs & love, take care. Susan & Lanky
  69. Hillary & Maui (GA)

    Hillary & Maui (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Even though we have never met, there are some kitties that you feel like you know, through pictures, video and words from their beans. Doodle is one of those kitties.

    Fly free sweet Doodle, may you soar high and wide and have a very soft landing. You are much loved and will be sorely missed.
  70. Jenny and Sue

    Jenny and Sue Member

    Oct 16, 2010

    I am so sorry about Doodle. I loved the story of how he came into your life. You were a great mommy to him and I bet he loved you so much. May you always keep his memory close at heart.

    Jenny & Sue
  71. squeem3

    squeem3 Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Just seeing this. So sorry about Doodle :cry: ((Hugs))
  72. pistull

    pistull Member

    Feb 6, 2011
    Hi Michelle! What a wonderful tribute to Doodle. I went through a whole box of kleenex I swear!!
    Sure looks like he had a fabulous life thanks to the care and love you gave him. They, in turn, love us unconditionally. I'd say it's a pretty great trade off!
    You did EVERYTHING you could for him and now he is running and playing like a little kitten again! I am so sorry for your loss!!
  73. Juanita & Chika (GA)

    Juanita & Chika (GA) Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((Michelle))) My heart goes out to you and your family. The tears started flowing as soon as I saw the title for this post. Although I am unable to visit much anymore, I would always look for Doodle when I was able to stop by. Your written tribute, as well as the video are both beautiful beyond words. Doodle was so well loved.

    Doodle was meant to be yours and you were meant to belong to Doodle. It could never have been any other way.

    I wish I had lovely, comforting words but all I have are tears. Deepest sympathy, Juanita and Chika
  74. Jen and Oreo (GA)

    Jen and Oreo (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Dammit!!! Michelle, I just saw this. My heart is in pieces for you. I'm so very sorry it was Doodle's time. Another of our old timers has to go. I'm so just doesn't seem like enough. You fought so hard. :(

    Many, many hugs to you, Brian and especially Brielle!

    Fly free dear, dear Doodle-bug. You will be missed, but always remembered. Until we meet again brave boy.
  75. kryskat

    kryskat Well-Known Member

    Apr 13, 2010
    Oh Michelle... I was just checking in and I saw this... I'm so, so, so very sorry for your pain. You were the best mom to Doodle, he couldn't have been luckier to find you (and you him). You went above and beyond for your wonderful boy. I know he's at the bridge, chasing butterflies and spending his days with all of our dear GAs that we miss so terribly...

    Oh Doodle, you look so very much like my beloved Big Cat who went to the bridge last year in May... Run and play and may your mama bean find peace in knowing she gave you the best possible life... And that you will meet again.

    My heart goes out to you, Michelle.
  76. Judith and Thomas

    Judith and Thomas Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Oh, Michelle, I was so, so sorry to see this post...I had no idea Doodle had been having such a rough time of it recently. Tears...

    Your post and tribute to Doodle was so moving, and shows how very lucky both of you were to have had each other in your lives. I am moved beyond words. He could not have had a better mom than heart is breaking for you...many prayers being sent to you and your family as you bear this incredibly painful loss.

    Doodle was so very special...he will never be forgotten here in free sweet precious boy.


    Judith and Thomas
  77. sanrun

    sanrun Member

    Dec 29, 2009
    ((Hugs)) So sorry, it was time to let Doodle go. :cry: I know how hard it is.

    :YMHUG: Sandy - Dottie, Jeter & Tilly
  78. Sandy and Black Kitty

    Sandy and Black Kitty Well-Known Member

    Dec 31, 2009
    Oh Michelle. . .
    I will never forget Handsome Prince Doodle. . .
    Many many tears here. . .
  79. arniesdad

    arniesdad Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    (((((((Michelle))))))) Hope your doing well! Just watched the video again. Fly Free Sweet Doodle!!! rb_icon
  80. Mike&Buddy

    Mike&Buddy Well-Known Member

    Jan 23, 2011
    May you find that peace again with pleasant memories. My prayers and thoughts for you and your lost one.

    I always say this to everyone that loose a furkid, and I believe it very, very much.

    They take that love you gave with them, it never stops and never goes away.


    Mike - Buddy, April and Easton
  81. Michelle and Doodle

    Michelle and Doodle Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    Thank you all so much.
    I apologize that it has taken me so long to say that. I wasn't able to read your posts until recently because every time I logged on here it was just too much...
    But I wanted to tell you all how very much it means to me to see this - to know that you care...

    I would like to comment or respond to a lot of the posts - but I hope you will forgive me if I don't.
    The ground is still slippery for me...
  82. Ann & Tess GA

    Ann & Tess GA Well-Known Member

    Jan 7, 2010
  83. Anne & Zener GA

    Anne & Zener GA Well-Known Member

    May 26, 2011
    My heart is breaking for you and your loss. It is so very sad and how lucky for your Doodle to have such a wonderful and loving life. I hope you are surrounded by love and caring today and as you grieve. One day we will all be together at the Rainbow Bridge and it will be a wonderful place full of our loving furr babies waiting for us. wings_cat
  84. MJ and Gobnait

    MJ and Gobnait Member

    Jul 10, 2011
    am in tears. doodle picked the right people for himself.
  85. Patricia&Brownie

    Patricia&Brownie Member

    Jan 3, 2010
    ((((Michelle, Brian, and Brielle)))),
    What an incredible tribute to Doodle. It was written so beautifully, with so much love, that I'm going to keep it forever... You were both such an inspiration to me (and to Brownie). You were always there to give advice, or just listen, or share a funny Doodle story. You will always be in our hearts. Godspeed, Doodle-bug, until we meet again...
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