Hi Community, Sorry in advance for the long post!! Today is one of those horrible days, not that the past 2 weeks since my Kitten Luna was diagnosed were great because since then I have been battle myself about what would be the best for her. Luna is around 11 years old, a completely white beautiful cat who I rescued when she was already an adult cat. A couple of years ago, she was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism and since then she has been on methimazole. Since she was diagnosed with this illness she became a quiet kitten who basically only sleeps all day, except when she wants to eat and use the litter box. More than 2 years since I see her play and run around the house for the last time. Now she is diagnosed with Feline Diabetes and she develops a neuropathy of her back legs, this breaks my heart, at first I think it is time to let her go, but I couldn't, especially because I lost my kitten Lucas on June 1st due to FIP so I wasn't prepared to lose another kitten. So I decided to give her a chance. But after this 2 weeks I feel as I'm making her suffer every single day, she is not happy with me when pricking her ear to get the blood, especially because it takes for me up to 4 to 6 prick until I manage to get the damn blood drop and she is now also reacting with the shoot. For the blood test, I'm now warming her ear as suggested by some of you, but sometimes the blood only smears in the ear and it is impossible for me to get the right amount in the strip. I joined this group because it offers better resources about Feline Diabetes than what I'm getting from my Vet. I have read a lot of the information from here, I learned about food and how kibbles/dry food is the worst for a diabetic kitten. So I have already started to do a transition to wet food with the options available in Costa Rica, by the way, they are just a few options. I also found a place that sells raw food and I trying this with Luna. I'm feeding her with Nature´s Logic chicken and I gave up and also bought some Friskies ( I was reluctant due to the quality) and guess what seems as she likes the Friskies more than Nature´s Logic. During the weekend I tried the raw food and she accepts it without complaints. Don't know if doing this mix of wet food and the raw food at the same time is counterproductive. When starting to shoot her, I have to dilute the insulin because in Costa Rica there is no place that sells pet syringes with small capacity that makes it easier to get the right amount. But because of this group, I learned that insulin should not be diluted. So, I have ordered the syringes via Amazon and I'm doing the same with the strips because if I buy them here it will cost me the double. Another think about the shoot is the bubble, it is like the bubble hates me and wants to be in the syringe doesn't matter what I do. So I am afraid that if I inject a bubble inadvertently I can kill her. Her insulin dose is 0.76 UI of Lantus, but I read some posts that say 0.25 UI per kg and she is weighing 3.8 kg. If I follow this logic she should be receiving 0.95 UI instead of 0.76 UI. The point is that I have been doing whatever it is in my hands to try to fight for Luna, but when you see her laying on her bed, looking fearful at me because she thinks is time for the massacre, I asked myself if she deserves this. Today she has a follow-up appointment with her Vet to review the BG curve I did on Sunday and a checkup of her current condition. To be honest I don't know for how long I will be able to do this without falling apart. At least for now and due to the pandemic, I'm working from home, but when the time to go back to the office comes, I don't know how I'm going to manage all this. The option I have considered since day one of the diagnosis is giving her 2 months to see if she improves, if not, It will be time to let her cross the bridge. But when I think about this I feel like a serial killer. Having put my cat Lucas to sleep despite knowing that his illness was going to kill him as well, it is something that I cannot overcome, so it makes it more difficult to take any decision for Luna.