Looks like he is wobbling around a bit and still bouncing. Hoping he breaks this bounce tonight. He really threw us a curve ball the night before last.
Looks like he is wobbling around a bit and still bouncing. Hoping he breaks this bounce tonight. He really threw us a curve ball the night before last.
I'm very frustrated today. His numbers were mostly beautiful yesterday. I fed the curve, did everything right - only to wake up to pinks. And the pinks are just hanging on. I feel like we're going backwards again. (And I forgot to get a reading before i gave him a snack at +9.5. It's probably still over 300 anyway.)
It is an emotional roller coaster. I guess when they get to the smaller doses, .25 becomes a bigger percentage of background. Yum's reductions have slowed as her dose has dropped. She has stopped bouncing though. Darn those bounces.
Let's see what happens in the next few cycles as he is still within 6 cycles to clear a bounce. The NS and reduction back to back are probably causing some wonky readings . Let's not get too anxious yet. I say that for my benefit too, LOL.
I'm not anxious. I'm just really tired of dealing with this. I hate bouncing. I hate seeing any kind of progress disappear in 12 hours. I hate feeding and testing 17 times a day. I hate being chained to his schedule. I can't do this for the rest of his life. I just can't.
I'm not anxious. I'm just really tired of dealing with this. I hate bouncing. I hate seeing any kind of progress disappear in 12 hours. I hate feeding and testing 17 times a day. I hate being chained to his schedule. I can't do this for the rest of his life. I just can't.
You won't have to do this for the rest of his life. This is just a set back. If he trends upwards, you'll know if a few cycles and jump on it with taking him back up but, right now, he is not showing his hand. And when I said "anxious", I was transferring my own emotions and shouldn't have implied that you were anxious. We all hate bouncing and seeing progress at a standstill. It is a very frustrating dance.
One very redeeming quality for you and for me when I was doing this dance was that we do have the time to test during the day. I can't even imagine all the peeps that had to go to work with a kitty that was running a bit low and had to carb them up and leave. Mandy and Rex just went through this and today his is officially OTJ. Keep you eye on the price, Jen. I hear your frustration. I get it. He is working the juice. Let's see where he lands after the bounce clears.
At this point - I don't care where he lands or when. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to test all day long. I don't want to have all sorts of alarms set for him. I don't want to constantly worry if he's too high or too low. What's the point of doing all this if it's not working? He could be a diabetic for the next 10 years. I'm not dealing with it.
One month ago, he was on 4.75 units of insulin. Today it's 2.75 units. Rudy has made HUGE progress. But the part of the dance where they race down the dosing scale is very hard on the bean.
What really helped ME make progress, was figuring out Neko's patterns. Take a look over several cycles, not just one. Libby used to call it "waves of action". I used this information to give myself more "me" time, including sleep. Celebrate those bounces and do something for you - don't worry about the temporary high numbers. When Neko was on Lantus, I was always on the watch for a particular pattern that lasted three cycles. If I saw the first two parts of that pattern I had to really monitor that third. In a given cycle, when does Rudy do his big drops? Can you predict by +4 or +5 what the rest of the cycle will look like?
I spend a long time looking at spreadsheet data, so I could figure out when it was safe to go to bed at +4. And don't be afraid to "abort the cycle". There were times when I knew I just couldn't get up for a late night test, so I'd feed Neko a bunch of high carb food. It would boost her up so I could either get out or get sleep. They get over the carbs quickly enough. That's the same thing people who work all day have to do.
How can you say it's not working? Rudy has dropped from 5 units to 2.75 units in 18 days! That is huge progress. Rex set the bar a little high for the rest of us. Let's be patient or you will have me being discouraged too. Earlier today I was trying to figure out how you test so often and I was feeling like a bad cat mom. You use never sleep. If Yum goes super green in the middle after her usual nadir I miss it---but I leave food out for her. Rudy is so lucky to have you. Take care of yourself too.
Jen, I am just checking in on you and Rudy. I know how frustrated you were last night, we all get, been there but not to beat a dead horse, he is doing GREAT! He has come a long way. Please don't quit on Rudy. Wendy gave some good advice above as how to manage the dance a bit better for rest and sanity.
I hope you got some rest last night and please check in and let us know how you both are doing. We all care about you and Rudy.
