I've struggled with feline diabetes for 5 years. My vet discourages home testing, and I find it so difficult to try to get a blood sample from him; it's torture for him. So after our recent glucose curve test, he was labeled somewhere between "regulated" and "poorly regulated". I follow the vets instructions and still once or twice a year the cat gets some sort of expensive illness. I have two credit cards maxed out with vet bills only. I keep trying to get him well and nothing is working. The last time he went to the vet he had 5 teeth pulled and the vet cracked his jaw. My little guy can't catch a break. He always seems starving although I give him the recommended amount of food. He wakes me up several times each night begging for food. My other cat goes hungry often, she's a grazer and leaves food in her bowl so I have to put it away when she walks away from it or the diabetic cat will eat it in two seconds if I turn my back. He's on Lantus, which is nearly $400 a vile and we're almost out. I'm freaking out a little bit. I'm stuck between two hard spots- my money situation and how bad the cat really feels. I don't want to euthanize, I don't even think it's the right time. I have searched high and low for a new home, hoping another diabetic pet owner would take him on out of the kindness of their heart. Someone who knows how to give him better care than I can. I cry every day over this, it's something that has me deeply depressed and feeling backed into a corner. I'm so lost and confused on what to do with him, since he's such a sweetheart and he's got such a wonderful personality. Everyone here on this site have wonderful suggestions on how to make him healthier or things I could do differently but the fact of the matter is all of those suggestions cost me more money - something I just do not have. I'm out of funds. Maxed credit cards, including CareCredit. I barely make it every month just paying regular bills. I even started a "Go Fund Me" page. I guess I'm mostly venting. There's no answer here, no instant fix. I need someone to take him but it's so difficult to rehome a pet this old with such a large price tag. The overwhelming guilt and frustration shove me deeper into depression every day. It effects almost every area of my life.