It is with a heavy heart to post this, Willow is dying.

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  1. Willow

    Willow Well-Known Member

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    Hi all


    I would like to first off thank everyone on here who came to our aid over the past few years.
    This forum and group is full of some very special people. Thank you.

    What happened.
    Monday willow had a tooth pulled and was given a good bill of health, all of her blood worked looked good, the vet said she should be around for a lot longer.

    Tonight I get home after a long day around 10pm and found willow breathing short shallow breaths. I thought maybe it is her asthma. I gave her the inhaler, she ended up peeing all over the bed and could not stand up.
    I rushed her to the 24 hour emergency veterinary. They put her on oxygen, IV and took some exrays. The vet came back into the room and showed me her exrays and said her entire body is full of cancer. She will not make it through the night. I need to put her down now.

    I’m sorry, I’m not going to do that, some may disagree with my decision, yet if I would have listen to the four veterans back in 2015 who all said to put her down, willow would not have spent her last years with a family who loved her.
    If she is going to die, she will die at her home in my arms with her family by her side. Not in a strange, cold place at the hands of a stranger.

    Willow and I have become extremely close. I don’t feel I will ever meet another cat like her.
    When I would leave she would set in the kitchen and Merow nonstop supper loud for me driving everyone nuts until I would come home. No matter where I would be in the house willow would come to me and never leave my side, if I left the room she would follow me around like a dog. At night she would either sleep on my chest or under the covers next to me all night only leaving to get a drink or pee and right back to bed she would come. The past year she was having a hard time getting back upstairs, she would Merow for me to come and get her. Every time I would go to get her as soon as I would picked her up she would start to purr. Thank you daddy for coming to get me.
    Right now willow can’t walk more than a few feet, she has a hard time breathing, I gave her the last of the pain meds from her tooth being pulled on Monday to ease any pain she may have. It is only a matter of time before she leaves me forever.
    Even now on her death bed she still purrs when I touch her. We are on the downstairs couch, she is laying on her side next to me purring while I rub her belly as if nothing is wrong.

    I’ll be by her side for her last breath. I’m going to miss her so much.
     

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  2. Gill & George

    Gill & George Well-Known Member

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    (((((James)))))

    I am so sorry, My prayers and thoughts are with you, Willow and your family.
    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  3. carfurby

    carfurby Well-Known Member

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    I'm so so sorry. I know Willow is happy to have you with her. Sending prayers. Fly free sweet Willow. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  4. Bellasmom

    Bellasmom Well-Known Member

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    I am so sorry about Willow, fly free sweet Willow pain free:bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  5. JanetNJ

    JanetNJ Well-Known Member

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    Awe I'm so sorry. :(

    Can you see if there's a vet service that will help her cross in the comfort of her home?
     
  6. Bobbie And Bubba

    Bobbie And Bubba Well-Known Member

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    (((((((James))))))) this is such sad news and I’m so very sorry . You are an incredible care giver to Willow and the love bond between you and your love is so very strong. Holding you both in good thoughts as you share your last days together. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  7. Bron and Sheba

    Bron and Sheba Well-Known Member

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    I am so very sorry James
     
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  8. Dyana

    Dyana Well-Known Member

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    (((James)))) I am so sorry it is Willow's time.
    I am lighting a candle to help her find her way.
    So sad.
     
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  9. Tuxedo Mom

    Tuxedo Mom Well-Known Member

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    ((James ))

    I am heartbroken to read this sad news. You and your family have given Willow so much love and care over the years.

    Sending thoughts and prayers for a peaceful passing and :bighug::bighug::bighug: for you and your family.
     
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  10. Sue and Luci

    Sue and Luci Well-Known Member

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    So very sorry to read this sad news. :bighug:
     
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  11. Bellasmom

    Bellasmom Well-Known Member

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    Good thought, having vet come to house, they came to my house 3 years ago this month to help with my kitty named Baby
     
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  12. Kris & Teasel

    Kris & Teasel Well-Known Member

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    I'm so sorry you have to let your kitty go. :bighug::rb_icon:cat_wings>o
     
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  13. Shoeskitty-GA

    Shoeskitty-GA Well-Known Member

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    James, I have been wondering about how Willow was as I had not seen a post in a while. I am so so sorry that it is her time to leave you!
     
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  14. Ti-Mousse

    Ti-Mousse Well-Known Member

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    Very sad news!:bighug: I'm so sorry for you that little Willow has to leave.. :rb_icon:cat_wings>o
     
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  15. Chubba (GA)

    Chubba (GA) Well-Known Member

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    I’m so sorry. Sending vines of comfort to help you and Willow during this very difficult time. :bighug:
     
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  16. nslade001

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    My heart aches for you; thinking of you with love, Nikki
     
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  17. Sienne and Gabby (GA)

    Sienne and Gabby (GA) Well-Known Member

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    Those of us who have had to make this sort of decision know how difficult it can be. You have to decide what is right for Willow and for you. As much as it left my heart in tatters, when it was Gabby's time, her vet came to our home and she travelled to the Bridge in my arms. My thoughts are with you and Willow.
     
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  18. Pamela & Amethyst

    Pamela & Amethyst Well-Known Member

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    So sorry:bighug::bighug::bighug:cat_wings>o:rb_icon:
     
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  19. Noah & me (GA)

    Noah & me (GA) Well-Known Member

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    Sorry little Willow. :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:
    James, I've been there. I've done both oral and transdermal BUPE for cats with cancer. They still knew where they were and who I was, just pain free and at home.
    (Noah's transdermal BUPE, 0.16mg/0.1ml. Won't upset the tummy. Nigel was standard oral dosing)
     
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  20. Mandy & Rex

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    I'm so sorry to read this. Cherish the time you have left with Willow. :bighug::bighug:
     
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  21. JeffJ

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    You gave the gift of life and love. Willow had the very best for the past four years.:bighug:

    Like Dickson (Noah &me) said - Bupe is very good at keeping the kitteh's pain at bay. Leo was on it for awhile, and it was effective.
     
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  22. JoyBee&Ravan

    JoyBee&Ravan Well-Known Member

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    I agree with you :) As long as you can help her with pain I would let her die at home .
    I've always kept my kitties with me at home & they have died peacefully.

    Follow your Heart! :) My thoughts are with you,I know how difficult this is. I've buried 13 of my kitties in my flower garden, in my yard.:bighug::bighug::bighug:
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  23. Yvonne & Big John & Andy

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    So so sorry about your precious Willow. Hold each other close for the time you have left together! :bighug:
     
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  24. Calicos are Best

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    I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. I can tell how much you love your cat Willow and how much she means to you. Sending prayers & warm thoughts.
     
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  25. Olive & Paula

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    So sorry to hear this news. Keep cuddling until she reached the bridge. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  26. Tracey&Jones (GA)

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    I am so sorry that you are going through this heartache. I hope Willow's passing is peaceful.
     
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  27. Willow

    Willow Well-Known Member

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    Good morning everyone,

    Thank you everyone for their comments and prayers, as I was reading through them my eyes watered up and I started to cry. For many this is completely normal. With me I have never been a very emotional person. When my parents passed I was sad, yet never cried over it. Thank you!

    Last night was a rough night, I was up until 430am where I must have fallen a sleep laying next to willow. She was up and down all night drinking water and acting like she was ready to leave at any moment.
    My alarm went off at 6am for her amps, I woke up and she was no longer in the room, my first thoughts were she went to die somewhere else in the house. I found her on our bed sleeping. I woke her up, check her blood, supper high, gave her a little more insulin and some pain meds. As of right now she is acting like she is completely okay. What an emotional roller coaster I’m on.
    I have canceled everything for today to spend it with her. Sent an email to our normal vet requesting pain meds to ease any pain.
    We now know she is going to leave us at anytime and need to be better prepared.
    Anyone who has ever followed my post know willow never follows any rules. She is always just being willow and doing it her way.
    She is not ready to leave us just yet
    I attached a phot of her exray, hers is the one on the left. The vet said all of them white spots are cancer and her entire body is full of it. I will keep everyone posted

    Thank you again
     

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  28. Judy and Boomer

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    James, I am so very sorry that it is Willow's time.
    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  29. Krystina & Nelli

    Krystina & Nelli Well-Known Member

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    I feel very sad to read this. I cannot, cannot, cannot agree more completely with your (above) words, I am replying to.
    It is a blessing you did not know Willow had Cancer (for who knows how long)... I think you’d agree.
    My last (first feline, Molly), I brought to the vet one day and mentioned to him I felt a lump in her belly. The vet was not concerned, said probably was a fatty tumor. Fast forward two years later... Molly had intestinal cancer. Riddled with intestinal cancer.
    It was never ever a wavering thought in my mind that Molly was going to be brought anywhere else to (die) but in her home with me.
    I understand and believe your position is the very best for both you and Willow.
    I feel your pain.
    Everything is going to be ok. You and Willow will always be together.
    Metta.
     
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  30. Ella & Rusty & Stu(GA)

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    Dear James,
    Your love for Willow and her love for you will guide you. Willow will tell you when it is her time to begin her new adventure. Until then, be comfortable with your decision. And never forget that Willow will always be with you in that special place in your heart that belongs only to her.
    :bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
  31. carfurby

    carfurby Well-Known Member

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    I've had civvies with cancer and it can be up and down right until the end. There will be good days and bad days. Just make the most of each day and try not to think about the next day. I hope you have many more good days with Willow. Sending prayers. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
  32. Wendy&Neko

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    I am so sorry to hear the news. :bighug::bighug: I agree withy Carla, try to make what good memories you can for the two of you in the time you have left. Give her some scritches and kisses from me and her FDMB aunties and uncles. Pain meds (buprenorphine) will help. Sometimes an anti inflammatory (prednisolone) can as well. I too am one who had the vet visit so Neko could leave us surrounded by love in her familiar home. Timing was crutial, I didn't want a crisis. Listen to Willow as you always have.
     
  33. Carol in Chicago

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    Dear James, I am so sad to see this news. The bond you share with Willow is so very special. I think of you both often and will continue to send you both the very best positive energy.
     
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  34. Moms2Tigger&Blu

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    i'm so sorry. you are giving her EXACTLY what she wants.
    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  35. Darwin H.

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    Deepest empathy James. You sound a lot like me. I am an old tough Marine but only shed tears that I can remember for mycats. My Simba sounds a lot like Willow and that he is with me wherever I am in the house.
     
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  36. Cindy&Taco

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    I'm so sorry that your best friend will leave you soon.Tears reading your first post :( 40906749_10155539089145974_8938566166977183744_n 1.jpg
     
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  37. Bellasmom

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  38. Willow

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    What an emotional roller coaster today has been.
    Again thank you everyone.
    Reading everyone’s post made me tear up. What an amazing cat crazy group we are. Thank you.

    Right now willow is laying on my chest purring with her face pressed against my cheek.
    I have given her muscle relaxers and pain medication. She slept most of the day on our bed.
    I really hope when she goes it is in her sleep pain free. Hopefully our veteran is open tomorrow so we can get her more pain medication.
     
  39. Gill & George

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    I'm glad she's sleeping comfortably with those that she loves. I hope that you will have more moments like these to treasure. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.:bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  40. JoyBee&Ravan

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    How is Willow doing today? :):bighug:
     
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  41. Susan&Felix

    Susan&Felix Well-Known Member

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    Sending comfort to you and your sweet Willow. This is very sad, but it's also beautiful to see a kitty who is so loved and so loving.
     
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  42. Bronx's dad

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    James, I am so sorry. Thoughts and prayers are with you and Willow :bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  43. Bellasmom

    Bellasmom Well-Known Member

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    Sending thoughts and prayers
     
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  44. Joanne&TinySole

    Joanne&TinySole Well-Known Member

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    I am heartbroken for you and Willow, James. Heartbroken.
    I send you both much strength, wisdom and love...much love.
     
  45. Amina&M'row

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    Love and support to you both; I am tearing up reading. A bit consoled by learning your Willow is and will stay at home. Thoughts and prayers to you both.
     
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