2/5 Loose Lips: Rhiannon - 2014 sucks

It's me again.
Will it ever end?


My DGM had a bad morning yesterday. She fell 3 times over the morning period.... her legs were extremely weak. She basically slipped to the floor as she stood from her
bed. We thought it was dehydration again, she had nausea , weakness and leg cramps.
I called the ambulance at 1. The did a ct scan and found a bleeder deep inside her brain. They transferred to Santa Fe hospital where they have a neurologist . We don't
have a neurologist in Los Alamos.
So we went to Santa Fe ...
they are calling it a stroke.
I am about to shower and go. They will run more tests today to see if it stabilized or if it changes.
And they will get her up today to see if she can or can't walk. If not, she may wind up in a rehab facility :sad:
Maybe even the one that my mother died in. :sad:

She is there mentally.
And this is much like the pattern of her mother who had several strokes over the last few years of her life until the final one.

I think all the stress .... my DM, my DD, moving.... have all been too much.

I appreciate prayers.
My DD is still in a bitter state of mind. I think she is still festering her anger so she can believe that we are evil parents. Everything is our fault or manipulated by us.
She thinks everything I do is to manipulate her so I am learning to be silent.
I am damned no matter what I do or say.
It seems even texting her to tell her that her GGM is in the hospital is seen as me manipulating her.


Shadow is still doing okay.
I can see more signs of the pain she is in from her osteo in her hip so she gets bupe every night... probably should do it day time too... It's very expensive but I will manage it.
I'm not very in tune with her right now so I hope there isn't any thing I am missing with her.

I am trying to keep up with you all some even though I'm not online as much as I would be without all life's stresses.
Prayers for kitties and beans who need them and even those who don't.

Oh boy .. I am so sorry to hear about your DGM and your DD .. I pray things will get easier for all of you .. :YMHUG:

I, too, am sorry to hear about your DGM and DD. I'm also sending you tons of prayers, and hoping that things pick up for you all very soon. Hang in there, Rhiannon. :YMHUG:

hello rhiannon.
i know i dont know u. i just wntd to say i am so sorry with what ur going thru with family. i know how painful those losses r, and the illnesses, too.
thinking of u...

((((Rhiannon)))) I'm sorry you are having such a rough time. I'm sending many healing vines to your DGM. I'm sorry your DD is still blaming you for things :sad: I hope she wakes up some day soon to see that you just want to love her.

I'm glad Shadow is doing good! Scritches to her, and hugs to you. :YMHUG:

Sending endless prayers and hugs. Don't worry about keeping up with condos - just take care of yourself and your family, and know that we are thinking about you, praying for you, and you can come here to vent any time you need to.

{{{Rhiannon}}}

So sorry about all that you are dealing with. It's hard to think of anything else when the family is in turmoil. I'll be praying for your DGM,and for your DD. She must have something really eating at her soul to treat you this way. I pray she'll come to terms with it soon and be able to see things more clearly. Hang in there. You have a lot of people sending you positive vines. :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:

I am so sorry to hear about your DGM. Sending prayers for you DGM and for your DD. You have had to cope with so much lately. I pray for a turn around for 2014. I pray your DD will have a change of heart. I don't know how old she is but sometimes with age you learn to appreciate your parents more. Sometimes the more we try the harder they fight.

You helped me a lot when I first joined this board. Sending hugs.

So very very sorry Rhiannon. It has definitely been a bad start to 2014 for you. Healing vines for DGM and big hugs for you. ((((HUGS))))

:YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
Rhiannon, we are thinking about you and sending many healing vines to your DGM. Also hoping that your DD will realize that you love her and that you are dealing with many things right now and need her to stop being such a pain.

Scritches to Shadow. She loves you without reservation!

Hugs,

Ella & Rusty

(((((((Hugs)))))))

Man, when it rains it pours. . .

Sending our strongest vines your way for courage, strength and perseverance as you weather this storm.

The good news is that 2014 just started so you have plenty of time left for things to turn around. All you can do is take it one day at a time and be the best person you know how to be. DD will come around. I hope DGM is ok and doesn't have to go to rehab. Gardens of vines coming your way! :YMHUG:

Rhiannon, sending you hugs :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: and prayers for you and your family.

(((Rhiannon)))) Sending many healing vines for your DGM and hoping DD gets out of her funk soon.

I just got a vial of chicken flavoured bupe for Neko from a compounding pharmacy way cheaper than from a vet. Something to think about if you aren't doing that already. :YMHUG: :YMHUG:

(((Rhiannon))) Prayers for your DGM, and for you♥

home from being with my mamaw all day.

definitely a stroke. she is weak on her right side and can't really walk so will need pt
and her mental isn't great either. I had to repeat myself all day... she can't remember anything I say.
I went to eat lunch and run an errand and she was crying when I returned. feeling like staff said she was lying, very paranoid, hard to calm down.
And she repeated the cycle often.
I fear for her tonight ... her blood pressure goes up when she gets upset and she is likely to do that often.
They gave her a sedative and it wasn't doing anything for her after an hour... she was just getting more upset. She didn't eat lunch, yucky and upset...
and I hope she ate dinner.

My dd did talk to my husband ( but not me) and was going to go see her tonight.
I hope so.

Oh Rhiannon, I'm so sorry! You are really having it all dump on you at once. Sending healing vines for your DGM and calming vines for you. Lots of hugs too!

:YMHUG:

nothing i can say will make this better - you're in a difficult time - but i hope it helps to know that we care, rhiannon. your daughter will eventually get over this, although it might be when she has kids of her own.

sending the best to your grandma. grandmas are so very precious.

I am late in seeing this update from you. It's been a while since the original post, so I hope in the days that have passed since then that things have improved some. Sending prayers for you and your family. Love on your kitty, that might help to make you feel a little better. It always works for me. :razz: