wade
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Just basically looking for folks with more experience guidance here; oregano generally runs high (280-380) but many nights, like right now, she’ll drop from 380 to 310 in twenty minutes, then down to 260 half an hour later, then another 30-40 over the next half hour etc. I will stay up with her through the night terrified she’s going to crash and I miss it, and invariably (with a few exceptions) she will stabilize around 150-200, then slowly start the climb up to mid 300’s again. By then it’s morning, I’ve slept a combined two maybe two and a half hours in 15-30 minute blocks, and my wife gets up, feeds her, we do the insulin together (always together to avoid ever double-dosing) and I slog down the hall to my office and phone in a few zoom meets. I generally catch a nap mid day and then nighttime rolls around and it’s the same routine. It’s me, I know, but this FD has opened up in me some massively obsessive caregiving/hovering trait I did not know existed. I’m 53, so this is a revelation to me. Folks on this forum have spoken about the bond that develops with their fd kitty and I can attest it’s true. It’s like having a newborn, 100% dependent on me and trusting that daddy will get it right, that I’ll take care of her. My work performance is a solid C minus these days, and the lack of sleep has made me gloomy and dreadful of impending nighttime. My wife, bless her heart, has been a champ and so incredibly patient with me—I sleep in the living room with oregano (who is paraplegic so can’t walk around on her own) and my wife and I take turns leaving the house (I work from home and she’s a homemaker, so we caught a break there) for things like errands, the gym, etc. we can’t go on vacation obviously and honestly I don’t want to because oregano needs me here. No real point to this rambling except to ask has anyone else experienced this? This obsessive caregiving role that entirely overtakes your life and around which you build literally every other aspect of your day to day? Does it get better? Are you all able to give your kitties insulin and go to bed for a solid 7 hours and then get up? I would pay a considerable amt of money to be able to get to that point. I have tried, but I just lay there terrified she’s crashing RIGHT NOW and have to get up out of the bed and come check her, then sit up in my chair to watch over her. I think I really just want someone to tell me this gets better. She was diagnosed in Sept and this far I think I’ve just gotten worse. Thank you in advance and apologies for the length. -Wade