Brianna & Xander
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Previous post: 8/15/25
Still here, surviving (barely).
The boring part, negative as usual, please genuinely do feel free to skip this. I know it's always something with me (trust me, I know ) But in explanation: I mostly can't eat and am in constant pain that only stops when I sleep, but I can only get a couple of hours of sleep/night, if that. His numbers have still been pretty good, but despite a couple of reductions it's been a struggle to keep him in the 50s and I've wound up with lime pre-shots that made me skip (or that I had to skip because I was just too exhausted to handle it). Fully realize his doses have been wonky but I've done my best making decisions when I probably can't get advice in time combined with my exhaustion and general idea of how he's been doing. He's almost fully switched over to Weruva and he likes it but has decided to start playing games in terms of not eating specifically the meals that are important/time sensitive, like: his gaba 2 hours before pre-shot; snacks to keep him steady; any MC/HC to bring him up. Just refuses. Some nights I sit with him for hours waiting for him to decide to eat a single tsp of food. I give him snacks to prevent the drop overnight but either he won't eat them, or the drop happens so late that there's not much I can do. He doesn't seem sick or anything, he's otherwise normal, it's genuinely like he's just being difficult because he knows I want him to eat it. A lot of the time he'll go back once I give up, but by then it's too late. Sometimes it's entire larger meals (if I give ONLY small meals too rapidly he won't eat it either), and in those cases we're so far behind on calories for the day that it's impossible to catch up. Also being difficult about injections again; I have to catch him and hold him down. So... everything's basically awful. But I'm here.
Still here, surviving (barely).
The boring part, negative as usual, please genuinely do feel free to skip this. I know it's always something with me (trust me, I know ) But in explanation: I mostly can't eat and am in constant pain that only stops when I sleep, but I can only get a couple of hours of sleep/night, if that. His numbers have still been pretty good, but despite a couple of reductions it's been a struggle to keep him in the 50s and I've wound up with lime pre-shots that made me skip (or that I had to skip because I was just too exhausted to handle it). Fully realize his doses have been wonky but I've done my best making decisions when I probably can't get advice in time combined with my exhaustion and general idea of how he's been doing. He's almost fully switched over to Weruva and he likes it but has decided to start playing games in terms of not eating specifically the meals that are important/time sensitive, like: his gaba 2 hours before pre-shot; snacks to keep him steady; any MC/HC to bring him up. Just refuses. Some nights I sit with him for hours waiting for him to decide to eat a single tsp of food. I give him snacks to prevent the drop overnight but either he won't eat them, or the drop happens so late that there's not much I can do. He doesn't seem sick or anything, he's otherwise normal, it's genuinely like he's just being difficult because he knows I want him to eat it. A lot of the time he'll go back once I give up, but by then it's too late. Sometimes it's entire larger meals (if I give ONLY small meals too rapidly he won't eat it either), and in those cases we're so far behind on calories for the day that it's impossible to catch up. Also being difficult about injections again; I have to catch him and hold him down. So... everything's basically awful. But I'm here.
Brianna 
I hate the panic of knowing he's like a third of his food behind and I have no way to make up for it.
