GA Sprockets journey is over

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  1. Darnell & Sprocket (GA)

    Darnell & Sprocket (GA) Well-Known Member

    Mar 13, 2015
    :rb_icon:cat_wings>oSprockets journey with diabetes came to an end on Jan 18, @4:45pm due to large cell lymphoma of the kidney. After his ultrasound we did an aspirate & I think that's what took him down. Since then his condition deteriorated. He had severe soupy poopy for a week until one med finally worked. His appetite got to be less & less despite the appy stim & steroid that usually increases appetite. Its possible that something else spread that messed up his insides or all the meds he was on but either way he stopped eating. We tried to syringe feed but that didnt last longer than a week as he pushed it away badly.
    I felt horrible always giving him food or meds. His will to live was there but his body was not cooperating. I tried everything i could but nothing worked. I was lying on the floor with him petting him & he let me touch his paws. He never lets me touch his paws. That was my sign he was suffering. I could see it in his face. He stopped most grooming. He would only eat a few temptations treats on friday with water or tuna juice.
    We said goodbye Friday late afternoon. My heart is broken. I am lost. He was most of my day for so long. I know he had almost 4 yrs longer than if he was elsewhere but I still feel like I failed him. I didnt stop the cancer. It was too fast. Day before the ultrasound he was acting fine & playing with a little reduction in appetite.
    One month later he is gone. I miss him so much. I look around my house & his stuff is everywhere. Beds, toys, diabetic supplies, food piles, etc.
    He changed my life forever. He made me find a family of diabetic cat parents that helped strangers just to help. I found some forever friends in those strangers. He showed me great courage, love, & kindness. He learned to trust me unconditionally.
    Despite his rough start in life he had such a kind soul that loved & just wanted to be loved. He was so intelligent that i knew he understood everything i told him. He proved that by showing me.
    I pray he is playing (pain free)with all his passed family & friend kitties at Rainbow Bridge looking down at us. I hope he shows me signs that he is ok soon. I miss him so much. My heart hurts. I keep crying alot. Cordelia is looking for him still. She misses him too. She is all alone now. I cant believe he is actually gone.

    I thank you all for your help especially when my anxiety went bonkers.
    Love you all, my family of people I have never met.

    And I know someone here knows how to make a tribute video & collage. If its you please private message me & I hope you can help me make both. Thanks. :rb_icon:cat_wings>o

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  2. Hogan

    Hogan Member

    Dec 5, 2018
    I am so sorry, you did everything that could be done for him. You didn't fail him, you gave him a life of love and security. :bighug:
  3. Osha

    Osha Well-Known Member

    Apr 16, 2016
    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:I am so sorry for your loss.
  4. Bellasmom

    Bellasmom Well-Known Member

    Feb 12, 2018
    I am so very sorry for your loss, he is at peace and pain free, you gave him everything you could and the ultimate gift of love, may you find peace cat_wings>ocat_wings>ocat_wings>o
  5. PussCatPrince - GA

    PussCatPrince - GA Well-Known Member

    Nov 25, 2017
    Ah Darnell.
    Big huge hugs from all across the miles. :bighug:

    You were a perfect match for each other. Both sharing great courage, love, & kindness.

    Take care of you in the hard days and weeks to come.

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  6. Angie & Millhouse

    Angie & Millhouse Member

    Nov 29, 2018
    I'm so sorry for your loss.
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  7. Dyana

    Dyana Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    You loved him so much, and he knows it. He got those four long loving years with you :bighug:
    He will remember your love and will be waiting for you to join him, one day.
    Big Hugs! I know how it feels.
  8. Kris & Teasel

    Kris & Teasel Well-Known Member

    Aug 17, 2016
    I'm so sorry you had to let Sprocket go, Darnell. You did everything humanly possible to give him a good life right up until the end. :(:bighug::bighug::bighug:
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  9. carfurby

    carfurby Well-Known Member

    Feb 19, 2012
    I'm so sorry. Fly free Sprocket. Sending prayers.
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  10. Judy and Boomer

    Judy and Boomer Well-Known Member

    May 23, 2014
    Darnell, I am so very sorry for your loss.
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  11. Sue and Luci

    Sue and Luci Well-Known Member

    Nov 3, 2017
    He was a handsome gentleman. I am so very sorry to hear of crossing the rainbow bridge. Sending prayers to you to help you heal. cat_wings>o
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  12. Krystina & Nelli

    Krystina & Nelli Well-Known Member

    Jul 4, 2018
    I am so very sorry for your pain of loss.
    These words you write... I’ll write too when Nelli leaves my life, in body.
    Big, big, big hugs to you (and so many others here on this site) :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:
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  13. LizzieInTexas

    LizzieInTexas Well-Known Member

    Jul 25, 2016
  14. Ella & Rusty & Stu(GA)

    Ella & Rusty & Stu(GA) Well-Known Member

    Jan 11, 2010
    Dear Darnell, You did everything you could for your boy, and his life was greatly enriched because of your love. Tonight the moon is full and Sprocket will be there at the Bridge, partying under the Full Wolf Moon with his old pals and communicating with the L&LL kitties through the veil at the Circle of Remembrance.
    He is in "good paws" at the Bridge until that wonderful day when you are reunited. Until then, look for him in that special place in your heart that belongs only to him.
    Hug your dear Cordelia and help her in this time of loss. She needs to mourn, too.
    Fly free handsome Sprocket. You are much loved. cat_wings>o

    In loving remembrance and deep sympathy,

    Ella & Edward, Rusty (GA), and Stu (GA)
  15. tiffmaxee

    tiffmaxee Well-Known Member

    Nov 15, 2013
  16. Sienne and Gabby (GA)

    Sienne and Gabby (GA) Senior Member Moderator

    Dec 28, 2009
    I'm so sorry for your loss.

    Fly free Sprocket and land softly.
  17. Sandi & Whisper

    Sandi & Whisper Well-Known Member

    Oct 2, 2015
    I hope that you and Cordelia can bring each other some comfort. I am very sorry :(
  18. Wendy&Neko

    Wendy&Neko Senior Member Moderator

    Feb 28, 2012
    (((Darnell))) I am so sorry it was Sprockets time to earn his wings. :bighug::bighug::bighug: I hope you get that sign soon from him.
  19. Marje and Gracie

    Marje and Gracie Senior Member Moderator

    May 30, 2010
    (((Darnell)). I am so very, very sorry for your heartbreak. You were the best mommy beautiful Sprocket could ever hope for. At some point through the grief, I know you will find peace that you did all you could.

    Fly free, sweet boy cat_wings>o

  20. Darnell & Sprocket (GA)

    Darnell & Sprocket (GA) Well-Known Member

    Mar 13, 2015
    Thanks. I do believe we were meant to be together. ❤
  21. Bronx's dad (GA)

    Bronx's dad (GA) Well-Known Member

    Nov 30, 2016
    I am so sorry for your loss Darnell.

    Fly free sweet Sprocket :rb_icon: 12282.jpg :rb_icon:

  22. Michelle and Mannie (GA)

    Michelle and Mannie (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 28, 2009
    I am so very sorry to read of Sprocket's Passing. You two were the best of buddies. I hope that your memories will be of comfort. Always remember that Sprocket will always be with you, in your minds eye, and tucked away in that special corner of your heart. Fly free little one, land softly at the Bridge.:rb_icon:

  23. Susan&Felix(GA)

    Susan&Felix(GA) Well-Known Member

    Sep 4, 2017
    I'm so sad to see this. I'm sorry you had to say goodbye to your Sprocket; he sounds like a wonderful kitty. Wishing you comfort.:bighug:
  24. nslade001

    nslade001 Well-Known Member

    Nov 12, 2018
    I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love, Nikki
  25. Carol & Murphy

    Carol & Murphy Well-Known Member

    Aug 9, 2015
    Darnell, heartfelt sympathies for your pain and loss. I am so very sorry. RIP, Sprocket.
  26. Barbara & Uncle (GA)

    Barbara & Uncle (GA) Well-Known Member

    Oct 13, 2016
    Darnell, I'm so sorry to hear this news. You gave your heart and soul to such a beautiful spirit as well as the best of care and a loving home.
    I hope you and Cordelia can find peace and comfort in the coming days ahead. Lean on us, we're here for (((you)))
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  27. JeffJ

    JeffJ Well-Known Member

    Jul 7, 2016
    You gave Sprocket the gift of life-saving insulin and a loving home. It doesn't get better than that. You must have some great memories of your furkid. May he fly high and land softly at the Bridge.:rb_icon:
  28. Idjit's mom

    Idjit's mom Well-Known Member

    Apr 3, 2018
    My heart aches for you, Sprocket lives in your heart forever. Peace and comfort in your sorrow, Darnell. :bighug::bighug:cat_wings>o
  29. Bron and Sheba (GA)

    Bron and Sheba (GA) Well-Known Member

    Feb 21, 2015
  30. Cindy&Taco

    Cindy&Taco Member

    Oct 21, 2017
  31. Shoeskitty-GA

    Shoeskitty-GA Well-Known Member

    Feb 18, 2016
    I am so sorry Darnell!! Please be kind to yourself; you were a great kitty mom and did everything possible for your sweet guy! RIP Sprocket!
  32. Sandy and Black Kitty

    Sandy and Black Kitty Well-Known Member

    Dec 31, 2009
  33. Pamela & Amethyst

    Pamela & Amethyst Well-Known Member

    Dec 11, 2016
    So sorry:bighug: Your handsome little man was very lucky to have you and is now at peacecat_wings>o:rb_icon::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
  34. Ti-Mousse

    Ti-Mousse Well-Known Member

    Dec 2, 2018
    So sorry and sad for you ! :bighug: Sweet little Sprocket is flying free cat_wings>o
  35. Jill & Jade

    Jill & Jade Member

    May 29, 2018
    Sending love.......
  36. Tracey&Jones (GA)

    Tracey&Jones (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 12, 2016
    I am so sorry that it was Sprockets time to be released.

    He was telling you it was time and sometimes we just need to ignore the heartache to listen to our furry friends.

    Wishing you peace and healing.
  37. Teresa & Buddy

    Teresa & Buddy Well-Known Member

    Jan 2, 2017
    I am so sorry for your loss. It is soo very hard to let go.
  38. Noah & me (GA)

    Noah & me (GA) Well-Known Member

    Dec 3, 2016
    You did not fail Sprocket. I had a partial meltdown in Grief on the weekend about the same thing and my friends here made me feel so much better.
    Grief never really goes away but with help from your friends here the sun will rise again. Lean on us all you want, we've all been there and that is what friends do.
    All our boys and girls have a spot picked out for Sprocket across the bridge. The grass is warm, no pain and only good memories.
    For you, Sprocket and everyone else suffering an undeserved pain, :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:
  39. Wally & Stefano

    Wally & Stefano Member

    Dec 25, 2018
  40. Darnell & Sprocket (GA)

    Darnell & Sprocket (GA) Well-Known Member

    Mar 13, 2015
    Thanks. I am falling apart alot too. I will post in Grief section soon cause I am a mess.
  41. suki & crystal (GA)

    suki & crystal (GA) Well-Known Member

    May 4, 2014
    Sending you prayers for peace and comfort to heal your broken heart. :bighug:. Safe journey to the Bridge Sprockett. cat_wings>o
  42. Moms2Tigger&Blu

    Moms2Tigger&Blu Member

    Jul 23, 2018
  43. Joanne&TinySole

    Joanne&TinySole Well-Known Member

    Jun 19, 2018
    I wish there were something I could say to lessen your grief, but there is not. I am deeply sorry for the loss of your beloved Sprocket. You did all you could. We cannot know their suffering, because they cannot speak, but every day we do our best for our beloved fur babies, and that is exactly what you did. Be kind and gentle and patient with yourself and love Cordelia as much as you can. All you have is one another to get through this. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
  44. Tricia Cinco(GA) & Harvey

    Tricia Cinco(GA) & Harvey Well-Known Member

    Jul 18, 2011
    Oh Darnell, I am so sorry to learn that Sprocket has crossed the Bridge. [​IMG]

    You did NOT fail him in any way! You went above and beyond what most people would do for him. He knew how much you loved him, and he trusted you to do what was best for him. You repaid that trust by giving him what he wanted most, his freedom, even though you didn't want to let him go. Just remember, he will always be with you, for he remains firmly planted in your heart.

    Take all the time you need to grieve, and give Cordelia lots of love, as she is grieving, too. Remember you are a part of this family, and we'll always be here for you. :bighug::bighug::bighug:

    Fly free, sweet Sprocket, and land softly. :rb_icon:
  45. Chubba (GA)

    Chubba (GA) Well-Known Member

    Apr 30, 2017
    I’m so sorry. Sending prayers of comfort for you. :bighug:

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