Previous condo Good morning, Sorry I have been away for a few days. I have just not been dealing with all of this very well... Shmee doesn't seem to be doing any better, except just now he used the scratcher and then climbed his cat tree up to the window perch. I was really surprised and happy. BUT this is currently 8am... He gets his meds / first meal at 6:30am. He did not want to eat this morning. He hasn't been interested in eating the last few mornings, but once I leave him alone with it he will eat it fairly soon. This morning though, I set an alarm for 7:45 to wake me up to check his food. As soon as I got up I noticed he threw up. It was a small amount, and looked like saliva. He has never thrown up. Go to the food, didn't eat. So I threw it away and tried another flavor. Then he ate right away..... I am thinking throwing up made him feel better, the same way it does for us, then he ate ok? I have no idea. This is when he used the scratcher and just went up to the window perch. The Gaba is well out of his system now (630 am/630pm), so I assume that is another reason he felt like climbing up there, since he wasn't totally out of it / sleepy. Well in about two hours he's going to be zonked out again since he just ate the Gaba in his food.... which makes me feel terrible. So now this makes me think, how am I supposed to tell if he's any better while he's on medication that zonks him out...? Also, I was going over Dr. McCues texts again from Wednesday evening and when I asked about the pancreatitis he said there wasn't much of a cure.... and he wanted to focus on the thyroid increase because that could help the pancreatitis too, so he said he should be good to stay on the gabapentin and cerenia. Shmee was not on cerenia at that time. I only ever got 4 1/4 pills, this was after his 09/05 vet visit when I was scared because he was in pain. This is when the vet said he can start taking the Gaba for pain too. One of the cerenia pills was a waste since he wouldn't eat it in his food, so he only got three. And then on 09/10 he had his bloodwork appt. My vet said we can try to do away with the Gaba in the morning to see how he feels. That next morning he was very mean, has NEVER been like that, so I kept him on the Gaba. I never even thought about asking for the cerenia again..... Now fast forward to Wednesday evening the 12th when I talked to Dr. McCue, and he mentioned "staying on the Gaba and cerenia" should help him with the pain, while we adjust his hormones. I should have called my vet and asked for more cerenia, or told Dr. McCue right away he wasn't on it anymore to see what he would say. I feel so dumb, I guess I just thought it didn't seem to help the first time, and my vet didn't bring it back up the day he was mean and still needed the Gaba.... so I didn't think of it. Long story short I guess I will be calling my vet and picking some up tomorrow... he refuses to let me give him his Desmopressin shot now too most of the time, so I have to wait until about 2.5 hours into the Gabapentin to attempt it. Going over those dates just now really opened my eyes.... This seems like its been FOREVER but it really hasn't. Sometimes I do not like to come on here to explain everything because I just feel like I am complaining a lot, and I know other cats have it way worse. But honestly I am drained, and depressed about this whole situation. It is very hard to deal with, and I am pushing everyone around me away. I have anxiety issues as it is, and this is making me go crazy. I hate drugging him and making him barely able to walk. I hate that he feels like crap and he looks at me like I am dangerous and hardly comes around me anymore. I know it takes patience. As you can see, I have none. It is really hard to just sit around when he shows zero signs of getting better. ALTHOUGH this is why I was so happy when he just used his scratcher and climbed up to the window...… just gave me a little bit of hope. Which leads me to.... Dr. McCue said ideally he would need bloodwork if he isn't feeling any better in 7-10 days after increasing the hormone. 7 days would be Thursday. But how am I supposed to tell he's feeling better if he is always on gabapentin....? The only reason he was feeling "spry" just now was because the Gaba was out of his system. Maybe I should try to move to a half pill every 12 hours starting maybe Tuesday.... no idea. Again, sorry if I worried anyone. Vines to all kitties in need today, @Ana & Frosty I am always thinking about you.