? My Beloved Saoirse has Gone to The Bridge

Mogs, I'm so very sorry it was Saoirse's time to leave you. You both went through so much together and so loved each other. Know she is now in a place without pain. This Beatles song seems appropriate to me. Fly free Saoirse.

Blackbird
The Beatles

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night

Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

 

Had to put the heating on. I'm so cold.

 

Dear dear Mogs....you are exhausted and in shock...it is no wonder you feel so cold. Put on some cozy warm PJs, wrap yourself up in a warm blanket and have a hot cup of tea. Please take care of yourself. All of us here are concerned about you.

 

Yes - this is normal. I well remember that shivery feeling when I lost my Sophie on a mid September day... Couldn't stop shivering in fact. Mogs, you do have to make a very conscious effort to take care of yourself... Please do exactly what Mary Ann suggests. And I don't know if you like music or tv but you may need some kind of distracting sound in the house.... It somehow breaks up the "stagnant" energy that we feel when we are numb from shock.

 

Got the TV burbling away in the background. Silence would be a total head-wreck.

Tried to eat something for the first time since Friday evening and it was like sawdust. Couldn't manage more than a few mouthfuls.

I am dreading the next time I wake up and it hits me that she's not here. I love her so much. She's my whole world ...

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Mogs

You are so thoughtful in the midst of your own grief but this is about you and Saoirse; I just wanted you to know that if it was peritonitis, you absolutely did the right thing by setting her free. And if it wasn't, you still did because you listened to what she was trying to tell you because your love for her is so very great.

You are right.....the first few days, there is shock and disbelief. You grieve, you cry. But when that shock wears off, it's so important that you know we are all here for you and wish we were there to give you hugs, listen, and share tears.

 

Can't think of any words of my own right now that don't sound trite in my head... But this really touched me recently as being so much in accord with my own experience of grief:
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This is one time when rubbish tv has its uses. I think The X Factor is about to start which is of less than zero interest I know but as background sound it does the job.

Eating will be a challenge but things like scrambled egg and yogurt should slip down ok.

Yes - it's those moments of waking that it will hit you all over again...sigh... You will cry and sob and grieve for as long as you need to and then after a while you may have to devise a strategy for this, eg throw yourself into some energetic vacuuming or washing up... some kind of mindless physical activity. Sounds silly but possibly more helpful than allowing yourself to think for too long. But everyone copes in their own way and you will find the way that helps you, in due course.

Grief is a process. It has no set course or rules or timeframe. We all just do what we need to... Go with the flow for now but remember your responsibility to your own wellbeing.

(((((Mogs)))))

 

Know that you gave her more love then should be possible.
The pain and shock will fade, the love and memories will last forever.
She will be watching over you now, the same way you watched over her and will be waiting with the others at the bridge.

 

http://www.scrapbook.com/poems/doc/13433.html
Words to a poem

 

That is such a comfort to know, Marje. God only knows what I'd do without you all. I'm so glad you're there; I'd be absolutely lost without you all.



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I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is.

 

I'm so sorry it was sweet girl's time to cross Aine...BIG HUGE LOOOOOOOOONG HUG. Remember - she's not 'gone', you just have to hug her differently.

Soar high on your new angel wings sweet girl....landing softly back in Mama's broken heart...

More hugs and prayers for comfort....

 

I was able to read it above using the Zoom on my browser. It's beautiful, Lisa. Thank you.

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That poem helped me out so much when I lost my Felix in Jan of 2005. He had surgery for a urinary blockage and never recovered. He was only 2 and smoky was still a kitten then. My prayers and hugs are with you right now.

 

I am so sorry for your loss. There is nothing worse than losing someone so dear.

 

I am so sorry that you are hurting. Saoirse is pain free now. She is looking down wishing she could ease your pain. She loved you just as much as you loved her. She had a wonderful mom. She and all your special pets that you have loved all your life will be waiting at the bridge to shower you with love. While I have been reading all these posts, I have been remembering all the special pets that have shared their lives with me and my family. They might be gone, but never forgotten. I just wish I could give you hugs and ease your pain

Donna

 

Oh, Lisa ... I'm so sorry you lost Felix so young. I lost Saoirse's brother two weeks before their third birthday (car). There's never a good time to lose our little ones but in so many ways it's much worse when they're so young. I truly feel for you over such a cruel loss.



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Oh NO Mogs!!! I've been following along with your posts, sending vines and prayers for your dear Saoirse and to get online and see this news is heartbreaking.

I'm so sorry that she had to leave you, but if it was peritonitis (which from the sound of your description of the pain she was in, is a very good bet) it was a kindness that she went to the bridge. No more pain....she'll only feel love

Have you ever read the fable "The Loving Ones"? That's it's original title anyway....I've always called it "You Have Chosen Tears"....because from the time they enter our lives, we know we will lose them, but as the fable says, even a moment of their love is worth the pain we feel later.

Sending you a big, long virtual hug and wishing it could be in person

 

Dear Mogs, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that a faraway stranger is thinking of you and wishing you comfort through your pain. Here is a poem that has helped me in the past.

If I should ever leave you whom I love
To go along the Silent Way,
Grieve not,
Nor speak of me with tears,
But laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you there.

( I'd come - I'd come, could I but find a way!
But would not tears and grief be barriers? )
And when you hear a song
Or see a bird I loved,
Please do not let the thought of me be sad...
For I am loving you just as I always have...
You were so good to me!

There are so many things I wanted still to do -
So many things to say to you...
Remember that I did not fear...
It was Just leaving you that was so hard to face...
We cannot see Beyond...
But this I know:
I love you so -
'twas heaven here with you!

(By Isla Paschal Richardson)

Rest in paradise, sweet Saiorse.

 

I don't know if anyone posted this yet, but here's a poem by Mary Elizabeth Frye that helped me some after I lost my dad:

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.

 

((((((Mogs))))))
I am so sorry it was Saiorse time to cross, my heart is breaking for you.

 

((((Mogs)))) I am so sorry. Saoirse could not have had a more loving, wonderful mom than you. There are people world wide weeping for your loss. Wishing we could physically wrap you in our arms and support you.

I hope she sends you a sign soon that she made it to the Bridge. A bright new kitty angel star will be shining in the sky tonight.

 

I'm so so very very sorry!
I understand when it's just you and your fur babies. And to lose one is so very hard - words can't describe how much I'm feeling for your loss right now.
Remember this, as long as they live in our hearts and memories they are still alive in some way.

Soairse (freedom) is now free from pain and suffering, running free across the rainbow bridge, waiting and watching and loving you from there, but always always loved by you, and kept safe in your heart.

 

Dear Mogs, Im so sorry, so very very sorry! Im sending you lot of strength for this very difficult time. we are with you and Soairse in our thoughts. Take care!

 

So sad. Saoirse was a grand cat. Today, I shall raise a glass in her honour. And please do take care of yourself, Mogs.

 

Words fail me. for you.

 

I am so sorry to hear that Saoirse crossed the bridge.

Fly free Saoirse and keep watch over those who love you.

 

Oh Mogs! My heart is hurting for you! You and Saoirse will be linked together forever. Please take care of yourself.

 

That she was in pain tore me apart, Chris; I don't know how many knives pierced my heart today. If I had my way not one whisker of her would ever have known even mild discomfort for all of her days. I lost my dad to peritonitis and subsequent pneumonia and he was in an awful lot of pain so I was bracing myself for the worst even before I got to the vets today.

I couldn't bear to see my girl hurting. As heart-shreddingly awful as it is to be left behind, it was a kindness to both of us - and the last bit of love I could show to her directly - to set her free of it. And her last gift to me was to leave me free of any doubt over whether I might not be making the right decision. I am dealing with a number of 'what ifs' but mercifully that isn't one of them.

I read that fable when you posted it before quite some time ago, Chris. Consequently, it has been running through my head all day and it gave me some badly needed borrowed strength, support, and an extraordinary amount of comfort as I worked to get through making sure that my beautiful Bonnie Munchkin got what she needed at the time when she needed my help more than at any other time in our precious and wonderful life together. I am glad you introduced it to me; it rings so true and I, too, have always found it deeply moving and comforting. The staff at the vets were trying to soothe and reassure me, but I told them that I had Chosen Tears and I was completely at one with myself having unreservedly embraced that choice so many, many moons ago.

Ditto.

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I'm so incredibly sorry to hear this. I can't imagine the agony you feel. I wish that I could do something to make this less painful. I'm new here, but this group is full of such amazing people with huge hearts. Please know that you are not alone; there are so many people here that have you and Saoirse on our minds and in our hearts. My hear breaks for you.
It may be hard to believe right now, but letting her go was an incredibly selfless gift and the most loving thing you could have done for her. I hope to have that strength if the time ever comes. You are an amazing kitty mom. <3

 

Oh Mogs, I am so, so sorry to hear that you have lost your beloved Saoirse. I hope, someday soon, you can reflect on your marvelous life together. You worked so hard over the years to give her the best possible life. She knew you loved her unconditionally. What else can a sweet kitty ask for in life? And that you were able to give her the last, greatest gift, relieving her pain.

Please take care of yourself, giving yourself time to grieve while eating well, sleeping when you can. We care about you!

 

I'm so sorry to hear your beloved Saoirse has passed, Mogs. I can't image the heartbreak you must feel. She'll always be with you and she knows how much you love her.

 

Oh, no! Mogs, I am so very sorry for the loss of your beloved Saoirse. I know how much she meant to you and how close the two of you had become, always there for one another, through thick and thin. You were a part of each other, your souls were entwined. My thoughts and prayers are with you. If you need a shoulder to cry on, please don't hesitate to PM me. I'm there for you. Sending hugs to comfort you and prayers for peace. Saoirse is in the heavens, now. Look upward and you will see her.

 

Am crushed to hear you lost your baby. My sincere condolences on your loss.

 

Oh Mogs, I am so very very sorry to hear of the loss of beautiful Saoirse. You have been the most amazing bean a kitty could wish for and to give her your final gift of love letting her go is a wonderful thing........and so very hard to do.

Fly free Saoirse and land softly at the rainbow bridge where so many of your FDMB friends will be waiting to greet you.

Please take care Mogs ...this is such a hard time for you. Lean on us here and let us help you through this time

 

Mogs I sit here barely able to see to type, know that you have done everything you can humanly do for your precious fur baby. Also know that you have given her the hardest gift possible to give. This is the gift of release and the end of pain, also know that she is as close to you as your very breath and that she will stay with you as long as you need for she is now your guardian angel. I ope that this gives you some small measure of comfort and ease.

Norse Legend of the Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.

The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author unknown...

 

Mogs, my heart hurts for you. My thoughts are with you in this time of sorrow.

Fly free Saoirse.

 

A beautiful song from Jacques Brel that resumes a lot...

 

Dear Mogs,
I'm so sorry to hear about your serious struggles to keep Saoirse healthy, I'm beating myself up for not sending prayers earlier on as you really needed them! I was so absorbed with Rocky's health problems.
I do hope you and Saoirse will get better soon, you are so amazingly proactive when it comes to dealing with Saoirse's health crisis, please give yourself a credit for it.
I'm sending lots of prayers and healing vines, thinking of both of you, keeping my fingers crossed for improvement.
Lots of love and hugs
Marlena and Rocky

 

@Marlena -

Thank you for your love, your prayers and your hugs. I lost Saoirse yesterday ...

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Oh Mogs, I'm so so sorry to realise now that you lost that battle!
In times like that it is difficult to find ways to give you some comfort but I would like to say that I think of you right now and I'm sending the strongest healing vines to help you go through this very tough time.
My heart goes out to you.
Marlena

 

Mogs, please keep in touch, say something however small so we can keep communication going!

 

Dear Mogs, I so hope you managed to get at least a little sleep. Hard though it is to wake again to reality, you need to get as much rest as you can to restore some of the energy - physical and mental - you have expended recently. You are exhausted, I'm pretty sure. If you find after a couple of days that you can't sleep, it might be an idea to get some assistance for that. Everything will feel so much tougher without sleep.

Please let us know if there is anything any of us can do. You are among real friends here who sincerely care.

Thinking of you.

HUGS

Diana

 

(((Mogs))) I am so terribly sad to read of the loss of your darling girl. My heart breaks for you, I know the pain it causes to have to take the decision to end the suffering of a beloved kitty. You gave Saoirse the greatet gift of love you could, and she is at peace now. In the dark days ahead hold onto the wonderful memories you have of her and the love you shared

When my mum passed a friend sent me this poem. It brought me comfort and I pray that it gives you some small comfort also.

You can shed tears that she is gone
Or you can smile because she has lived
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all that she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her
Or you can be full of love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her and only that she's gone
Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
Be empty and turn your back
Or you can do what she'd want; smile.
Open you eyes, love and go on.

with deepet sympathy, fly free little Saoirse and land softly.
Suki x

 

Mogs I just saw this I am so very very sorry to hear that sweet Saoirse crossed the bridge yesterday. My heart is breaking for you.

 

Dear Mogs, I know you are exhausted and in shock. I just wanted to remind you to please please take care of yourself. Saoirse would want you to do that. Eat a little something every day, make sure you are drinking water or tea, and be kind to yourself.

Remember that you have SO many people here who love you and care about you!

 

I have such a massively powerful feeling that Saoirse's still here in the house with me. I keep going to where she should be, expecting to see her and longing to caress her and my heart sinks and shrivels to find she's not there ...

My beautiful, darling girl; my beloved baby; the last of my family; my best friend; my raison d'être ...

(((Saoirse)))

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((HUGS)) Mogs. I thought about you this morning as soon as I woke up.

Saoirse's spirit...the part of her that made her such a special girl...will always be around you and in your heart. Her spirit is on a different plane of existence now, but still remains with you. I am sure Saoirse is watching over you, while you grieve and trying to let you know that she is released from all the pain and treatments. The connection between you two surpasses the physical world and while you grieve for your terrible loss, remember to celebrate the deep love and special bond between you and your beloved Saoirse.

Sending many, many hugs and strength for you.

 

I am dreading the onset of the pain that I know has to come.

 

@suki & crystal (GA) -
Thank you for your poem - it's very, very comforting.




Mogs
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Over 10 years ago I lost my soul kitty, Chessie. I cried everyday for over a year, and still do occasionally, but somewhere along the way I also started smiling when thinking of her. This song was popular at the time and became my tribute to her. It still gets to me.

 

Fell asleep holding our blankie and her dinghy bed that she loves so much close to my heart ...

 

@Bobbie And Bubba - Sending an extra special for your little Pirate Kitty.

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Thank you, Sharon - captures so much of what this is like. From the day I lost Ammie that's how I felt and have continued to feel ever since. My feet are taking the first steps down that painful road again ... but this time without the physical presence of my beloved Saoirse to mitigate the feeling of devastating loss. (While she was still here I always felt that a little part of Amadán still remained with me in this physical plain; alas! no longer ... not only have I lost Saoirse, I've now lost Amadán a second time.)

I am so grateful that this time I will have you and others here to comfort me as I walk that oh-so-lonely, agonisingly painful path. The Universe did not see fit to grant me such a precious benison in the past; I was left to the dubious mercies of the "He/she was only a cat" brigade.




Mogs
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My inexpressible gratitude to everyone responding. I can't adequately express how much your messages and caring mean to me. It will take me a little time to respond properly to you all but I will get there in time.

Thank you all for saving me from the horror and torment of trying to go through such a profound loss utterly alone. You have no idea how much that means to me, nor how incredibly deeply I appreciate the love and caring you have for my beautiful, beloved baby girl. (((Saoirse)))




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Thanks Mogs I will continue to hold you in my prayers.

 

There is a very special place in my heart for both of you. I will never forget what you did to help us earlier this year.




Mogs
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Mogs I am sure I can speak for hundreds of people here in saying that losing Saoirse is like losing one of our own. Both you and her hold a special place in our hearts.

 

And I will continue to hold you and Bubba in mine.

Have a grand day, Birthday Girl, and best wishes for many more to come!




Mogs
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Oh, Mary Ann, thank you for this. I am so glad that I was able to tell you all enough about Saoirse so that you all might learn about even the merest fraction of how wonderful her spirit is, and that you came to care so much for my beloved girl. There was only one of me and she deserved much more love than I could ever give her.

Behind the scenes I faithfully passed on every single prayer, every single fuss, every single scritch and every single healing thought that every single one of you sent her way. Even our vets know about how many people around the world have prayed and sent healing for her. It is a tremendous comfort to me that, in some small way, I was able to convey to you all some small part of the essence of the oh-so-beautiful miracle that is - and always will be - Saoirse de Faoite, and that so many of you here came to love her.




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People can be so heartless when they say that but one thing I know for sure Mogs, you will never, ever hear that here. We all grieve when one of us loses our beloved kitty, and the amazing love and support from everyone gives us hope and the courage to carry on.

 

Like so many others here, I woke this morning wondering how you are doing. That feeling you have, that Saoirse is still there, is because she is. She will never leave you Mogs and those feelings are Saoirse telling you she is fine. They are reminders of all the good times you shared and why your love for each other was and continues to be, so very special. Be kind to yourself Mogs because that is what Saoirse wants for you.

Remember we are all here for you and sharing your grief...... all wishing the miles did not separate us so we could be there to offer you even more support. Sending a boatload of hugs!

 

I wish to God ye were all around the corner ...

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oh I am so, so sorry. I know it hurts so horribly bad. its like a nightmare losing a furbaby. awful awful utterly heartbreaking. I really feel for you. i'm so sorry!!!!!

 

Mogs, I am so very sorry to hear that Saoirse felt it was time to leave this physical world.....it is so hard being the one left here. This isn't about "me" but the point is releveant, as you will see. Since 2012 (I am 48) I lost my parents, my dog Hannah and my cat Toto....I was drowning in loss. I'm not a religious person but am extremely spiritual and have had amazing connections with those who left me here. Each departure was right on the heels of some new door opening..........my mom left right when my dad got ill and needed my care. My dog left right when I had to move to care for my dad....and so on (Spot got diabetes exactly when my dad went on hospice). Most importantly, I learned that when I can find a quiet space and drown out the "noise" from this physical place, I feel connected to them all. My mom visited me in a dream right before my dad went on hospice and was looking for him....she told me it was his time (my daughter had almost the same dream...mom told her she was waiting for him now). I have had numerous experiences like this these past four years. My point is that, in my experience, spirit is still with us everywhere...but the signal is hard to catch in the chaos and noise of our daily lives. Find that quiet and reconnect with Saoirse........

A few more things.........Animals and the Afterlife (Kim Sheridan) is an amazing compilation of inspiring stories (sort of like Chicken Soup for the Soul) of those from all walks of life who have had amazing experiences after their pets moved on to the next chapter.

Finally, this poem has been my inspiration and got me through these losses.....it is just an excerpt.........here it is..........hope it brings comfort.......

Excerpt from Henry Scott Holland poem:
Death is nothing at all. It does not count. I have only slipped away into the next room. Nothing has happened. Everything remains exactly as it was. I am I, and you are you, and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged. Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.

Wishing you peace and the ability to smile and find comfort in the near future...........Love and hugs, Robin

 

I truly believe this.....and choose to believe that when I am most missing the one who has gone ahead, that is when they are walking right beside me. Many more (((hugs))), dear Mogs. We are all thinking of you.

 

Oh Mogs, I am so sorry that Saoirse has gone to the Bridge. Continue to lean on everyone here - you have welcomed and supported so many of us, now it's our turn to support you. Sending comfort over the Atlantic to you.

 

Oh Mogs...I just don't know what to say. I am stunned by your sad news, and crying along with you, as if Saoirse was one of my own. I am so very, very sorry. My heart is breaking for you, dear friend, and I wish so much that I was there to hug you and help see you through the next few days! You and Saoirse have touched my life deeply, and I hope it will help you to know that she will always have a place in my heart.

And God asked the feline spirit
“Are you ready to come home?”

“Oh, yes, quite so”, replied the precious soul.
“And as a cat, you know I am most able to decide anything for myself.”

“Are you coming then?” asked God
“Soon”, replied the whiskered angel.
“But I must come slowly
My human friends are troubled
For you see, they need me, quite certainly.”

“But don’t they understand?” asked God –
“That you’ll never leave them?”
“That your souls are intertwined, for all eternity,
That nothing is created or destroyed,
It just is . . . forever and ever and ever?”

“Eventually they will understand” replied the cat
“For I will “Whisper” in her heart – that I am always with her.
I just am . . . forever and ever and ever!

– Unknown

Love and (((((((hugs))))))) to you, dear Moglet.

 

I believe Rover is still with us. At first, I thought it was just the habits of testing, shooting, feeding, monitoring. I kept thinking I should be doing something. I still think I should be doing something at certain times of the day. But that wasn't it. I hear a meow in my head every once in awhile, so I smile and say "hello." If Saoirse is still with you, enjoy the time.

 

Robin, your message here is just beautiful and said so perfectly and poignantly.

 

Thank you Bobbie.........
Hope it gives Mogs a little dose of comfort during this rough time of letting go physically..........

 

Dear Mogs, i'm so sorry to hear this sad news. My heart goes out too you. Sending you lots of love and hugs! Know that you are not alone in this, you have all your beautiful friends here on FDMB who are right there beside you to hold your hand in this sad time. The loss of a kitty friend is so extremely hard... Although it's the best for Saoirse, because there is no pain anymore, but still the loss of your friend is the hardest to handle.

 

Mogs

I hope and pray that you will continue to post here in the days and months ahead. You are a valued and loved family member here and we will all do what we can to support you. Your wonderful, kind compassion has helped and will continue to help new and long time members.

I use an animal communicator and she is able to contact animals that have crossed. She tells me that when the bond is strong between animal companion and human, as yours with Saoirse, that the beloved animal stays for a very long time and we actually see them because they ARE there. We dream of them because they want us to know they are still with us. She said cats have the ability to move back and forth across the veil so they can stay in our presence to comfort us but also spend time in the spiritual world. They miss and love us but when they've been so ill, they are happy to be in a form that is whole again and without pain. They wait for us.

 

Mogs I woke up today and thought about you and Saoirse and shed a tear. I just wanted to express again how deeply sorry I am for your loss. I know I've only been on the board a few short months but the amount of care and love you had for her was expressed through each and every one of your posts. You went above and beyond for her and people like that (you and everyone else on FDMB) hold a special place in my heart because how deeply and unconditionally we care about our animals. You will see her again and she's always with you, forever.

 

It has brought me some comfort, Robin. Thank you.

It saddened me to read of all the huge losses you endured in such quick succession. I've been through similar and it's very hard to go through. ((((Robin))))


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I am so sorry for your loss. She sounded like such a wonderful companion. Try to always remember that the two of you made each other happy and the good times you gave each other

 

Thank you all for your messages and words of comfort. They are helping me so much - don't know what I'd do without you all and I'm so grateful to each and every one of you for caring about me and my beautiful girl.

I wish I had the wherewithal to reply to all of your messages straight away but I'm absolutely reeling right now. Please know how very much they mean to me and how deeply I appreciate all you are doing to help and comfort me. I would be doing so much worse without your warmth and caring.



I just don't know which way is up. I'm shaking, dissociating, and swinging between crying and then needing to cry and not being able to get past the numbness in order to let the tears come. I can't eat and a very large part of the time I feel like throwing up. I feel so cold and tired, so lost, and so fearful of the pain that's going to come when the shock wears off.

I'm still in a state of disbelief. I still think Saoirse is here. My Bonnie ...

That's all I'm able to write at the moment.


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I have to say it again: I am so grateful to all of you.




Mogs
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And more of these ...

The Wonderful Members of FDMB


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Mogs, you are doing an amazing job responding. When my Billy passed it took me days before I could respond to anything. Every time I tried, I cried so much I couldn't see.

 

Mogs, the most important thing right now is to take care of yourself. Sending you loads of hugs.

 

((((Mogs))) I've been offline for a few days and am just now seeing this sad, sad news. I'm so sorry that Saoirse has passed away. I know how devoted you have been to her, and how you have done everything possible to take care of her and keep her healthy and whole. The loss of a sugar cat is, for many of us, a loss like none other, because the gift that comes with caring for them is a relationship and bond that is also like none other. That's the gift of the diabetic cat - we get a heart kitty that is one with us. I know that gift and I know the grief that comes when they have to leave us behind.

You have my deepest sympathy. I hope you know how important a part of this community you are. You have helped so many here with their sick kitty - because they are not "just" cats. They are vulnerable little souls in furry bodies that trust us to care for them. I hope you will stay.

Yet one more poem . . .

Grace Noll Crowell said it best:

To One in Sorrow

Let me come in where you are weeping, friend,
And let me take your hand.
I, who have known a sorrow such as yours,
Can understand.
Let me come in - I would be very still
Beside you in your grief.
I would not bid you cease your weeping, friend,
Tears bring relief.
Let me come in - I would only breathe a prayer,
And hold your hand,
For I have known a sorrow such as yours,
And understand.
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Fly free little one, knowing you are loved and cherished.


julie

 

(((((((Hugs)))))))

 

(((MOGS)))

Everything you are experiencing is so totally normal...you are in the mourning and in the midst of a deep anguish from losing your very special Saoirse. You have given the greatest gift of all to allow your precious baby to escape from pain and suffering, but now you are the one with all the pain. As you grieve you must remember to take care of yourself as best you can. You are such a special person who has given so much to this community and as we also all grieve the loss of Saoirse, we worry about you as well. You have so many people from all over the world that are sending prayers and strength and hugs for you. Allow yourself to grieve, but don't allow it to destroy your beautiful spirit. Reach out to us all as much as you need.

 

My heart is physically sore. It is aching for my girl ...

 

I need you all so much. I'm going to need to reach out a lot.



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I want so badly to reply to all your messages - so many things I want to say to thank you but I'm absolutely shell-shocked. A lot of the time I can hardly see the screen for tears and some of the time I'm in such a daze I don't know what I'm doing. If you were all sitting beside me I could tell you straight away but trying to write is very hard. I wish, wish, wish I could write to you all straight away.

Please know that I cherish every word, every thought, every kindness. Please know how much you are all helping me. Please know how much I treasure you all. You're the only family I have. I shudder to think how things would be without you.




Mogs
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And a million more!

 

Many hugs and prayers for you dear Mogs! I think I can speak for most all here that it is not necessary for you to personally thank each person so let go of that. Please be gentle and easy on yourself during this time. Rant and vent all that you desire; I think it helps. But know that you and your Saoirse are in all of our hearts and we grieve with you!

 

Mogs, I don't think you should even begin to consider replying to messages - we know you're reading them and deriving what crumbs of comfort you can at this time, and we don't want you to have an additional burden in the form of feeling obliged to reply. First and foremost you must rest as much as possible because grief is exhausting and you need to stay strong for your own sake and your little civvie's (Lunasa? Sorry if I've got that wrong).

We know how hard this is. We do, we really do. Keep holding on to the positives - there are some... Saoirse is not in pain. She is in a lovely calm place where nothing can hurt her. And she will always love you because love is endless.

Great big hugs to you, Mogs...

Diana

 

Far too many of us have experienced a loss that has sent us reeling as the waves of emotion ebb and flow uncontrollably. We understand how paralyzing those emotions can be and don't want or expect you to reply to every message. We simply want you to look after yourself first and foremost and to know we are here for you and share your sorrow. Saoirse is with you in a different way now but she is there and always will be.

 

I agree with @Diana&Tom, responding to each of us should be the least of your concerns, unless it helps you to do so.

I can't even express my sadness, and everyone else has already expressed it so eloquently.

But I mostly want to say this to you: Although you and I have crossed paths in some threads, we've never "spoken" directly. But I sincerely wanted you to know what an inspiration you have been to me. Your wisdom, experiences, knowledge of medications, supplements and kitty procedures and treatments, empathy for others, and most of all your strength in the face of adversity.

I very often hear you sell yourself short in that regard, but I just want to say that I think you are one of the strongest people that I know. I aspire to be as good of a Cat Mom, and a person, as you are.

Whisper, the civvies and I are all holding you close in our heart right now and always.



Sandi.

 

I know we have not spoken for a while but I just wanted to tell you how very sorry I am for your loss. I don't need to tell you what a wonderful Mum and friend you were and are to Saoirse - she will always be with you ... our cats never leave us - they are spiritual creatures. I have lost babies too and someone once said to me that 'when you lose someone you love, you gain a Angel you know' and I hope these words bring you some comfort too.

One of my cats spoke to me through the rainbow and these were her words ..... I am sure Saoirse would say the same:

"I am always with you, your love is my home ...
You are always with me wherever I roam.
In our gardens of green where the sun is so warm,
My spirit is free and our friendship reborn"

She will be well now and playing with all her new friends and sitting by your side or on your bed until you have healed and can smile when you think of her. She was lucky to have you and you must never forget that ... big hug

xxxxLooby & Smiffy

 

It's not a feeling of burden nor is it a feeling of obligation, Diana; it's a feeling of overwhelming appreciation. If you knew my life story, you'd understand why I want to write to you all so badly. I have never - NEVER - received such kindness nor felt so valued in all my life. I am completely and utterly humbled ...

There aren't enough words in any language on the planet to express how much all your kindnesses mean to me; in all my days I've never ever known the like of it and I am profoundly grateful to each and every one of you for taking my beautiful girl and me to your wonderful and generous hearts.

I will NEVER forget this to all of you. With every ounce of my being I thank you for all you're doing to help me, but I thank you even more for the space you found in your hearts for my beautiful baby girl.




Mogs
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Awwwww Mogs - what I meant was don't tire yourself out when you need to conserve your strength. We know you'd *like* to reply but we would simply like you to take things easy for the time being. Your health is so important.

More hugs to you,
Diana

 

I've found somewhere beautiful to lay Saoirse's little body to rest - in a natural woodland. I am so grateful for this. I have no home of my own and no garden and I was dreading having to go for cremation. (I'm completely weak and pathetic when it comes to 'the aftermath' and it would have completely freaked me out.)

ETA:

For me, the thought of returning her little body to rest on the bosom of Mother Earth is the least difficult way to deal with things.


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Do you have people to help you with laying Saoirse to rest, Mogs?

 

My friend is going to take me down there. He's very good and kind (and God only knows what I'd do if he wasn't there) but he's not really an animal person and doesn't grok how big of a deal this is for me. I know that all of you will be there in spirit with me but, hand on heart, this is one time when I really wish ye could be there physically as well. I'm not good with graves and I'm dreading it.


ETA: It's going to be so lonely.

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